I Cry

I cry.
Because I know you care.
I die inside.
Because you're never there.
But you left for me.
And you left for your sake.
Your job before
Just wasn't safe.
And now your a million miles away.
When I try and talk there's nothing to say.
I can't think of you without tears filling my eyes.
I've never heard you tell me lies.
An you say that you love me so I trust that its true.
I don't think I'll last much longer without you.
Screw the job. Screw the pay.
Every night I dream of the day
That you're back with me and I know it's forever.
But can that ever happen? Ever?
Twenty years is oh so long.
I'm strong but my god I'm not that strong.
When you're away then everything's bad.
You can't expect me to live without my dad.
I miss you when you're away for a time.
When we haven't spoken, my tears at their prime
I try and send you an "I love you"
But it just won't work. This won't do.
I can't live without you. You're part of me.
Inside my heart there's a raging sea.
When you walk upon it everything's ok.
But every time you leave… I beg you to stay.
No matter what you try and say
The feeling of cold despair that 'Goodbye' brings around
Won't ever go away.
It's etched in my heart.
It's stuck in my head.
From when I wake up
Till when I go to bed.
There's a hole in my heart where you used to stand.
I miss your hugs. I miss holding your hand.
We see each other at least twice a year.
But it's not enough I fear.
I love you.
I can't live without you.
You're my father for fucks sake.
My hearts gonna break
If you force me to watch you leave once again,
Then I won't be able to stop it - I'll die from the pain.