If I Saw You Earlier

Chapter 65 ( last chapter)

I looked at the door. The light came from under the door. I got paralyzed, should I walk and talk to him. Or was it just someone cleaning?

I just stared. If he was there I wanted to run and open that door. Hug him and never run away again. I stood up and knocked on the door, I wanted him to think I was one of the people working in the hotel.

The door got opened when I sat back again on the bed. With my face towards the door, I noticed it was James slowly coming out of the bathroom. He wasn't smiling. He didn't show any emotions at all.

Me starting to cry wasn't something I wanted. I stood up and took those six steps towards him. I hugged him. My tears kept on falling on his chest. His shirt got a bit wet but I didn't care. I just cried. For everything we have gone through, me and him, I noticed something wrong with him.

" James, are you okey?". My tears stopped and I took a step away. I looked at him in the morning light. The sun was almost up and the sky was even more light.

" no, I am not.. John wasn't the only one paying for this. I had to make a promise". I saw him looking at me with pain in his eyes.

" what kind of promise?". I was holding his hands while looking him in the eyes. He was broken, I could tell that and the worst part was, I was a part of that broken boys heart.

" I made a promise to not take you with me to heaven". He said it with agony in his voice.
" I don't mind". I said while shaking my head.
" no, you don't get it, you will be reborn. And I might never find you. You might fall in love with a demon and not see heaven, not even in the next life". He said with a broken voice. Why didn't he think of him finding me? Of us meeting like we did this life?

" but James, you always find me". I said with a smile I didn't want to show but I couldn't help it. I was in love with him and he made me smile.

" no, I can't. Me falling from the sky to see you. I can't do that every time". He said it and I realized why he was hurt.

He could not take me to heaven this life to be with me forever and he had no idea when to meet me again in another life.

I couldn't believe I actually couldn't be with my love forever.

I was speechless. I wanted to know how this can be changed. But my mind didn't think. I took a step towards him and kissed him. He kissed me back. A strong kiss with lots of emotions. I felt his hands on me. I moved my hands through his hair.

We made out and I knew the thing I wanted for so long was going to happen.
But my love to him was strong enough and I knew with every sweet word, touch, look, I knew he loved me back. Me and him would be together, this life and we won't leave each other no matter what...