I fall. It is not bad. I like to fall. But when I do it feels like heaven to me. But the thing is, I never fall too far. I always will fall to this place. Where confusion and fast heart beats are everything.

And when I fall, it is like I live up with the clouds, maybe higher. And as I fall I feel happy, like I am flying and my goal is dragging me down.

Every time I fall I end up in a place I am familiar with. In a place I want to forget. In a place I want to avoid.

When I fall I give it all for a new start. To try to make something from nothing or maybe a tiny thing. But then I hit the ground or what ever this is.

As I hit this place I look down the edge and as I do I fall again. I don't know why....

Trying to write it. If you not understand it is ok. I just needed to write it and I have no paper near me so here I wrote it.....