Way Of Skinny
Eat. Purge. Smile. Repeat :).
I'm an 18 year old girl who lives in sweden, I love photography, writing and to draw! I see myself as a very creative person, but as I am a perfectionist my mind goes blank a lot of the times. I have huge expectations of myself and am very rarely pleased with my work. This results in me having to sit for hours to get something done and the way I want it to look. It's good sometimes and sometimes it can be bad, haha :)
Eat. Purge. Smile. Repeat :).
I never thought the anger would come, I never thought I could feel good again without you by my side, I never thought I'd love you less, I never thought I could fall in love with somebody else, I...
Hey, tell me. Do I have a sick mind. Am I not healthy. The bigger the number is, the more disappointment I feel.
Right now my whole body's aching and I feel extremely tired. Not only that; but I also feel like crying.
I love going to bed hungry, If I do, I'll wake up in the morning feeling skinny. I lift up my pyjama to see my stomach, and there it is, my reflection.
A pretty cut stings on my arm, The blood runs down along it, I smile and feel like I can finally breathe again. I close my eyes, take a deep breath, exhale, and smile.
Stomach's hurting, hands shaking, head is bolting. A tear falls down my cheek. Then another, a third, and a fourth. ...help me. You can't help me, I can't help me, nobody can....