Where Do We Go From Here?

Where do we go from here?
Stupid girl,
I told you,
Spoke the unspeakable.
Should have crushed it down inside,
Hidden the inappropriate.
To hell with it,
You are worth the risk.
You might have...
No,
I knew it was impossible.
You don't feel the way I do.
It hurts, but it's ok.
I'll get over this gaping hole,
One day.
I'll look back and
Choke on a laugh.
How stupid could I be?
To think someone like you
Would ever want a girl like me.
Who would?
And now it's bad,
Awkward.
Where do I go from here?