Ghost

Just as I walked away from the dark Forrest of my life and walked into green plains I see the ghost of a life I have left behind many full moons ago and the face of one I had forgotten. And the pain of the mistakes made stirs up a hurricane of emotions inside
My tormented soul,.
Hunted by a promise never fulfill I fall to my knees asking for forgiveness. Words long spoken and drawn with the sands of time resurged from their unmarked graves to torment me, and the voice of the ghost judges me and accuses me! Of betrayal!
But how can a ghost understand? That I only forgotten only because it hurt to remember, that I only broke the promises because it pains me to fulfill it?! How can she understand? She that had move on beyond my world even farther than when I walked away from hers, that I only forgot so I would not resent and hate her?
Oh how I wish I could go back in time and change the past! And take a different road! How I wish I had never hurt you and watch you cry as I walked away.. How I wish I could play with time and fix every wrong choice ever made, perhaps then you would had suffer less and I would had been the man I wanted to be and not the one I became., but alas time it's not a toy to be broken and fix at ones will, but a constant, nonstop force to which we can't do nothing but watch flow.
Now I must battle this hurricane of emotions, I must confront the reality and accept it, I will always regret walking away,.. I will always regret staying away,.. I will always miss her.. And I will never forget
Her.. For with all honestly I never truly have.. For her presence, and this I now understand.. Have always been there with me.. Every time I look at the moon and that emotion, that feeling of missing something when looking at it.. Was her and the traces of that promise once made..
My knees hurt, my eyes burn and soul mourns for the past long gone, but the past it's the past.. So I must stand up dust of my knees and walk on for a ghost it's but that a ghost and the Past it's
But a memory to kept with in and to cherish it and learn from it so we don't end up in the same place making the same old mistakes..
So as the night falls upon me and the stars illuminate the path in front of me I look up to see the vanishing ghost and up in the sky a full moon, I breath in the nights air, shake away my tears and send the moon a kiss renewing an age old promise, and start the walk toward the unforeseen future that await us all..