I've never really thought New Year's was all that. Don't get me wrong, I'm not someone who wallows in despair over growing older or rain pouring. I just kinda get on with things. I try to take responsibility for myself, do my own thing, master my own feelings. It is just a night, right?
Why is it then, every year, it makes me feel a little bit rubbish? I am no slave to time, I enjoy every season so it's not that. It's friends. An ongoing issue since I was small. I always feel an outcast, no matter how hard I try and I've been trying for over 30 years now. So either I should give up or be resigned but I can't. I believe I am a good person, a loyal friend but still no invites for New Year. It is hard to forget being forgotten.
I know that I am getting older, have children of my own. But... Oh this crappy holiday, it is the worst by far. For making you feel forgotten and forlorn. Bring on the creme eggs, roll forward 2013. Just stop reminding me of lost friends, longing and lack of confidence.
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