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Weathered down hands shake and brittle dry lips quiver. The time had come. A blistering gust of wind passes through. Then suddenly, calm..
He turned his back on logical thoughts. He broke down the blockade to let emotion flow freely. He opened the gates of his high walls to the possibility of hurt.
I search my head for the questions. I search my heart for the answers. I search the stars for the broken. I search my mind for this cancer. I search inside for a hatred. I search outside for the cure.
A life time of dreams, just a promise away. Little hope left inside, a heart fallen a stray. Another breach of the peace, thoughts picture blurred out.
Never argue with stupid people, they will drag you down to their level and then beat you with experience. ~Mark Twain.
Fireflies danced amongst an eerie mist as the sun set and evening welcomed its vast shadow. The fire had long but burnt out, and as i watched its ember fade, it took the day with it.
An all too familiar resignation of care. A breif whisper of nostalgia.. Thoughts relapsed and allowed me to diagress as the harsh southernly wind lashed at my brow.
As the smoke clears, Apparent is sight. A cause for the broken, A sheath for my knife. An early surrender, Delusion, all gone. Destruction and anger, The theme of my song.
I look up to the stars, So you will forever see, The best part of you, Still lives in me. - While she sleeps lyrics -.
For your heart i asked, though my actions lacked emotion. When i said my heart was yours, no truer words were ever spoken..
Bad thoughts have become abscent. Good thoughts are here to stay. Would thoughts have ever tainted me. If i'd thought another way...
Anchor dependance. Belay all my hate. Reveal reasurance. Don't make me wait. Strengthen composure. Enlighten my path. Rid me of worries. Perfection at last..
A gust of wind flows straight through him. Overlooking a sharp edge, Below, Chalk white cliffs where memories once lingered calling him back.. ..Gently becoming unaware..
Forces untold. Feelings to be unknowingly kept for an eternity of longing, a patience of forever, an oath to wait.
You are my medicine, when anger fills my veins. You are my medicine, healing all of my lifes strains. You are my medicine, my right from all the wrong.
Enjoy your days, before dreams become a haze. Keep the smile, make each second worth the while. Forgive and forget, for compassion's calling must be met.
Bringing back a primitive nature, vertical stature, no more anger. An immaculate reflection of ever greater elation, no more hurtful misconception.
Eradication of elation, surpressed by condemnation. A superficial sensation, the burden of creation. Interlinked social segregation, from a higher persuasion.
My touch is lifeless. My hands are numb. My fear is endless. My mood is glum. My thoughts are dreaded. My knees are weak. My hurt embeded. My eyes do leak. My effort, non-existant. My visions blurred.
Ways of wisdom, Ways of woe, Ways of hatred, Way to go. Ways of hurting, Ways of pain, Ways of dread, Always the same. Ways of coping, Ways of fear, Ways of choking, back my tears.
Surperficial expectations, heartaches route beheld. Hopes long lost woe, emotions due repelled. Revive a blanker canvas, replace it with my mind. Eradicate expectations, the anger makes me blind.
Behold my life. Reveal my knife. Conceal my strife. Replay the fife. Play the song in which i die. Woe behold me, do not cry. Do not ask of yourself why. Instead gift me one last goodbye..
Mountains moan and blizzards howl. Lightening cracks and thunder growls. Waves consume and winds groan loud. As clouds roar rain into the ground. .. Seasons change my friend, but do not frown.
Care to join me. Care to see. Care to know what its like being me. Care to listen. Care to try. Care to wait as time goes by. Care to hold pain. Care to hurt. Care to fall. These knees hit dirt.
I have CDO. Its like OCD but all the letters are in alphabetical order.. AS THEY SHOULD BE!.
Blood red antagonist, deaths sharp optomist. Petals of velvet, sharp pinch of reality, an on show beauty. Natures dark dust, a romantics longing lust. A emissary to love. An elation to noses.
Contours on a weathered face, signs of age, fallen from grace. Wrinkled hands, worn down soul. No good fills this gaping hole. Wisdom doesn't come with age, rather arrogance, ignorance, untapped rage.
Can't originality be accepted. Can't segregation be rejected. Can't oppression be deflected. Can't our causes be directed. Can't this hate remain subjected. Can't a cure just be injected.
After you die, it is believed that you have 7 minutes of brain activity left inside you, and in the 7 minutes you experience your entire life over, in a kind of dream...Because in a dream time is...
Dispersing hate like leaves on autumns tree's. Seeds of hurt carried on the wind, spread a far. Planted in minds of the innocent, an ever growing demise.
Pathetic parasites, feeding of the misfortune of others, lurking in every corner. Hate fuelled insects, leeching of the innocents pain. Spreaders of the rumourous plagues and whispers.
Waking up through the eyes of a child. Worries demolished, smile worthwhile. No fears of the future, no hate to hold. No angst to stockpile, no woe untold.
Do not regret growing older. It is a privilege denied to many. ~Unknown.
100 reasons to love. 100 reasons to try. 100 reasons to live. - 100 reasons to die. 100 reasons to fight. 100 reasons to believe. 100 reasons to write. + 100 reasons to achieve.
Stomach sore. Eyelids heavy. Lips are dry. Heartbeat steady. Narcotics down. I'm not ready.. ~Larko.
If they could only know what i knew.. ..What would it prove. 'H.U. - Believe' ~Larko.
For your heart i asked, though my actions lacked emotion. When i said my heart is yours, no truer words were ever spoken. ~Larko.
So far up, such a long way down. I wonder how fast, i can hit the ground. Several seconds pass, not a word nor a sound. Another bottle gone, now theres no way out.
Cherished are my stone cold words. An untapped energy of pure hatred, ever flowing. The seed of destruction planted. A mighty shadow of loathing towers over any hope visible.
Nothing is unrealistic. Nothing is unachievable. Nothing is too hard. No ambitions unbelievable. Reach out and take your destiny. Stand for what is right. Make your dreams a reality.
Cupid, the architect of a loving demise. One way arrows, bringing lustfull lonely eyes. Love not returned, a valentines surprise.
Love needs no quotation. Love needs no description. Love needs no explination. Love needs no incription. Love needs no gender depiction. Love needs no bounds at all. Love needs no specific reasons.
Roses, red stained complexion. Violets, love ever true. Materialistic symbols, i need not. For for heart beats always for you. ~Larko.
Tribute to existances awe. Accute demorilisation in visual contact of such beauty. Resignation of common courtesy, replaced by feelings ever true. Perfection in a figure imobilising to the mind.
I give it all away. Trade my hate for more pain. Watch my happiness drain. As my mind goes insane. Nothing else will remain. Stood alone in the rain. Bad thoughts stuck in my brain.
A fraction of a moment. A limbo between dreams and reality. A tiny elation or cause, frozen in time. A beautiful portrait of the past. A souvenir kept in your minds deepest guarded vault.
Paper wings, a sequence of disguise. Springs rainbow of delight, multi-coloured surprise. Resting on the blossomed, fluttering through rays of light. A peacuful existance, brightening up days plight.
B/reak m\e. ShAkE mE. Let Me Fall. H_ A_ _ N_ _ _ G_ _ _ _ M_ _ _ _ _ E_ _ _ _ _ _. (B)(L)(I)(N)(D) (M)(E). Fr0m 1t @ll. Lights gone ou-..... .llaceR toN oD <-- ~Larko.
Red poison gracefully flows, insignificance ever so grows. Sorrows seed sinfully sewn, pain tattoed deep below. Unknowingly unable to know. An undeserving weight too heavy to tow. Please..
Unkept thoughts finally escape. A clear horizon dawns upon the minds backdrop. A beautiful sunrise magnifies elation's bind. Free of hurt. Free of judgement. Careless of conclusions.
Pain is but a memory, erased from my minds vault. Fears exhanged for hope, enfolding perfection without a fault. Surrounded by satisfaction, by greater fed elation.
Significance only a statement. Motivation is merely a word. Inspiration a drought, no elation. Live for yourself, so i heard. Dwelling on mistakes, heart open. Surrounded by hate, one true fear.
Do you derive hope from failure. Do you derive joy from pain. Do you derive love from hatred. Do you derive loss from gain. Do you see life as a mystery. Do you see life as a maze.
Bottle empty, dreams run dry, Pour me another just to pass time by. Down the poison, done with thinking. Mind is numbing, head is spinning. Reality resides as i close both my eyes.
Rhaspy vocals, tired and worn. Working weekdays, morals torn. Concience broken, almost done. Singing in bars since 21. Needles sting and tablets burning. For heavens door, a man left yearning.
Derailing dillusions, disaster denied. Portraying illusion through half opened eyes. Conclusions resulting in worry's demise. Reality retrieved from the depths of my mind.
His shoulders, heavy. His hands, numb. His words, unspoken. His expression, glum. His life, lifeless. His visions, blurred. His thoughts, empty. His speech, slurred. His bottle, full.
Fighting to win. Winning to fight. Writing to live. Living to write. Living to hurt. Hurting to live. Forgiving to forget. Forgetting to forgive. Hoping to believe. Believing to hope. Choking to...
Reinventing my destiny, opening closed eyes as thoughts of my future warms the depth of my soul. Uninvited negative obsessions burn and vanish into the depths of my mind.
Loving you is easy, i just thought you should know. Astounded by your light, your everlasting glow. Unbelievably rare, such a beautiful gift. Relishing, your divinity, with each and every kiss.
So much hope and ambition, i remember the day. Taken too early, now so far away. Life emptied out, memories all thats left. Reality hits me, takes the breath from my chest.
I will not fall, when life hits me. I will not fall, forever strong i'll be. I will not fall, when they say i'm done. I will not fall, my journey's just begun. I will not fall, down to my knee.
Within Tattered mindsets, pre-recorded joy. An ilustrious illusion of false elation brews. Cautiously observing routines of a daily reality. Never changing that predetermined fantasy.
One two three, blame it all on me. Four five six, the time bomb of destiny ticks. Seven eight nine, tell them i'll be fine. Ten eleven twelve, Forget it, save yourself.
Distance derives that dreadful doubt. Not a mistrust, just an insecurity, reasurance's ran out. Many miles afar, yet only words away. We may live apart, but in my heart is where you'll stay. ~Larko.
Why me. Why you. Why old. Why new. Why him. Why her. Why sharp. Why blurred. Why false. Why true. Why happy. Why blue. Why bother. Why care. Why try. Why dare. Why even argue. Why not get on.
L oving, ever caring. A beauty, bright and pure. U nderstanding like no other. R eliability i implore. A nchoring my love eternally. I could not ask for more. <3Laura ~Larko.
Tender breaths taken, breathing softly. Gentle heartbeats, pacing slowly. Sweet nothings, whispered longingly. Hands held, they fit eachother perfectly. Eyes meet, a stare met lovingly.
Holding onto anger is like drinking poison and expecting the other person to die. ~Buddha.
I take back it all. Every hurtful word i said. I take back it all. As i count the tears i shed. I'm sorry for the heartache. I'm sorry for the wait. I'm sorry for my past mistakes.
She held me as i cried. Tears spilt over the foresight of her absence, i've never felt so alone, yet so loved. I felt her heart in her chest as her arms wrapped around my frail figure.
Ladies and gentlemen, come one and come all. Welcome to your life's ultimate downfall. This will not be easy, this will not go fast. These words i will speak, forever may last.
A headstone for the broken. A message for the damned. A hym to all the hated. Wash these Blood drenched weathered hands. A grave for all my sins. A hope for all mankind. Another heart left broken.
Another breath. Another pain. Another loss. Another gain. Another night. Another fear. Another fright. Another tear. Another song. Another burn. Another life. Another urn. ~Larko.
1 pill down. 2 am. 3 pills down. 4 pills left. 5 am. 6 to beat. 7 am. 8 i reach. 9 am. 10 in me. 11 am. 12 i'm free. 13 pm. 14 heart beats. 15 pm, heart beats freeze. 16 pm. 17 police. 18 pm.
Floorboards moan under gentle footsteps as the stairs end. Darkness surrounds the hallway. Silence is a dark virtue as the rain lashes window panes.
Nails scratch the surface, A red reality bleeds through. Steel etches memories, Buried within you. Actions surely wrong, brought by emotions ever new. Consequences sad, leaving lasting stains untrue.
The definition of my life. Scrawled on my skin in the form of withering scars and faded ink. My heart beats for one eternal happiness but without it i'm nothing. Without her i'm nothing.
I will always love you. I will always care. I will always hold you. When no one else is there. I will always be true. I will always share. I will always save you. When no one else is there.
I'll be fine, don't need a dime. I'll be fine, don't hear me whine. I'll be fine, this life is mine. I'll be fine, don't waste your time. I'll be fine, forgive my crime. I'll be fine, so stay in line.
Truth develops sadness. Eyes develop tears. Mind develops madness. Alone i fight my fears. Not a soul left to talk to. Not a soul left to care. Not a soul left, where are you.
Inspiration. A hard thing to come by in this state. Life is as dull as a blank canvas.
Sometimes i forget, to open my mind before my mouth. Sometimes i let trails of negative thoughts, just flow right on out. Sometimes i don't speak, but i merely spit harsh words.
Please let something save her, when i cannot be there. Please give her the courage, through sadness she will bare. Please protect her wrists, from the cold blade of the steel.
Too often do we spend our time worrying, pondering and thinking negatively. Accept your anxiety then release it. Its only a defence mechanism. Nothing is ever as bad as your mind makes it out to be.
Farewell senseless feelings. Farewell demons of the past. Farewell thoughts of misery. Farewell these thoughts at last. Goodbye to all the anger. Goodbye to all the pain. Goodbye to all the sorrow.
I will forever love you. When all is said and done. My heart's in your posession. You're the only one. I may be far away. I may be sad and low. But my love for you is precious.
My drug can be common. My drug can be old. My drug comes in sizes. My drug can't be sold. My drug is addictive. My drug is so whole. My drug has no bounds. My drug can't be stole. My drug has no...
Seclusion from being social. Delusion from being damned. Illusion from being broken. Fusion of thoughts, inside crammed. ~Larko.
One hole in my ear lobe. Another in my heart. A whole set of problems. Tearing me apart. One a modification of vanity. The other a natural curse from a far. Theres a hole in my ear.
If i had one wish, one final endear. I'd wish for your touch. I'd wish that you were here. ~Larko.
Read my name on stone, forever here i lay. Look up to the night sky, i'm never far away. If i don't wake up, do not shed a tear for me. Decisions define us all, but right here i'll always be.
So beautiful. Total disregard of her own feelings she fights to understand and help. A selfless understatement, though never fully appreciated, never truly noticed. So beautiful.
Mirror mirror on the wall, will this vanity, prevail or fall. Will insecurities crumble away, will confidence be here to stay. Will all the wrongs turn into rights, will all the dark turn into light.
S everal pills taken. U nusual stomach pain. I nsanity awaken. C lose to death again. I ndecisively shaken. D ecision surely made.
Love tattooed inside. An achor of eternity. I glance at the figure of eight, and know you're always there for me. 17 years old when the needle pierced my flesh.
Certified stranger, Concusions drawn and done. Street side messenger, couldn't care for one. Judgement based on looks, societys true tale. Smirking as they win, laughing as we fail.
Ponder my self destruction, Enlighten my own way. Disregard my own reality, waste each day away. Force recognition upon me, pretend i understand. Subtle scars remain, both bitter, bold and bland.
Fractured features and a crooked smile to match. Disillusioned morals with hard skin and a working ethic. Liked, not loved. Feared, not respected. A coward in many an eye.
Forever trapped in motion, Frozen fast in time. A picture of us both, encased within my mind. Your face shall never grow old, my love will still stay true. Behold, our love is endless.