Pretense Versus Truth

Once I believed in you, now I wonder why
I wanted to trust you, when you left me to die
I used to believe in you, I used to be on your side
But you used me and abused me, you stripped me of my pride
It makes me wonder now, what made me trust you before
I was stupid to have come back wanting for more
Now I've opened my eyes, now I see
It is better to walk away from you and just be me
You are my pretentious side, the walls I built up not to be hurt
Instead I ended being treated like dirt
I was blinded by my foolishness, I flirted with the lies
Now I'm feeling nothing for myself but despise
Now I cast you away, like I should have years ago
You are the life that I never wish to show
Now I'm changed, I'm loyal and true
I am doing better now, without you
And so you see, it's better to be honest and feel pain
Than pretend and lie because there is nothing to gain