Raised a cynic yet constantly looking for the fun and hope in life. Just generally confused and silly ????
Left wondering why Why don't they see me inside. They think I'm a hollow shell, that they can use and toss aside. But I'm here and I see what you're doing. How do I set myself free.
Used and tossed aside. Filled with too many lies. Left to wait and wonder Did they even know me on the inside?.
These tears wash over my cheeks, they bathe my face in the sorrow of my life. They wash away the hurt and the pain, leaving clean skin for a new happier day. But first the tears will come.
What do you do when you've been used like a shoe. When you've been thrown out like yesterday's mu shu. To have been used so energetically and then tossed aside.
The quiet and darkness it encloses me like a glove. The cold and empty feeling is here all the time. How do I leave this and find the light. To be bathed in the warmth and comforting sights..
Let the rain fall It can wash away yesterday and make room for tomorrow.
My strong angel, the man who gets me through. He fights off all my fears and wipes away the tears. He can't always be with me but shows up when hes needed.
Lost all alone in a land of haters. The pain and the hate permeate my skin. All things past degrade me still. What I would give to to wash away this filth. This devil in front of me pulled my hand.
By my side, holding my hand. Guiding my steps into foreign land. Into the darkness the cold and draft. Into the land of sinners and haters. He releases my hand I'm all alone.
The end of the day, the calm of the night. The stress is dissolving but my muscles are tight. I turn on the kettle and I run a warm bath. I pour in the bubbles I'm not doing this by half.
Look into the sunlight Feel warmth and see the glow. The sun shines it light everywhere, it spreads with light its joy..
This strong angel by my side, he is my shadow in good times and my support at the worst. He picks me up when I am down, he gives me faith when things get tough. He pulls me through when I get stuck.
Hope is like a breeze it's soars around my head. It floats and teases my heart and soul It tempts me into bed. It offers happiness and love. It says I'll be rich and powerful.
The more I yearn for happiness the further away it goes. I pull as hard as I can but it somehow strays away. It's like dream I have. I run as fast as possible.
Endless possibilities if you catch a shooting star. Anything is possible once you learn to reach that far. Once you grab that bit of magic everything will change.
The hard work the struggle. The endless confusion and the whole sordid muddle. Life is hard and complicated, getting through life makes me frustrated. But without this thing called hard work and time.
The warmth and the comfort. Sadness transcended to joy. All the love and the laughter. The problems you help destroy.
What to do when the one person you want, you can never have. The person you feel safest is dangerous?.
The dark shapes dance across the pavement as they shift and bend around the warm glow of the street lamps.
Happiness was always a lie Just like the happy ending in Disney movies Propaganda starts at a young age.
A lifelong wish, a feeling of comfort and safety. To know someone will be there beside you holding your hand. Picking you up when you fall down. Someone bringing you soup when your ill.
At the bottom alone, cold and wet The last breathe quickly escapes my body, I couldn't hold it. The breathe leaves and with it all my lifelong ties are cut away.
At the bottom alone, cold and wet The last breathe quickly escapes my body, I couldn't hold it. The breathe leaves and with it all my lifelong ties are cut away.
Friendship is a tricky thing. Will you stand by me through thick and thin. Will you stand by me when the worlds against me. If you are you'll always have me x.
I have a crazy kitty She roams around my bed She thinks she's guarding something but it's all inside her head. She marches up and down like a century on parade.
Looking up into the sky Looking up and wondering why. The endless possibilities The endless dreams just for me. I look up into the sky I think to myself I'm willing to try.
The hollowness of laughter the reality of pain. Lifelong problems resemble stains. You try to remove them you soak and you scrub. But even after all the work there's a mark that you can never erase.
What to do. What choice to make. An important friendships on the line it's make or break. I don't want to loose them but I know it's not right. The whole thing breaks my heart and blinds my sight.
I sit on the bench beside the freshly laid soil. The cool sun gently makes its presence known as it warms my cheek. It's too painful to go any closer and admit what has happened.
The emptiness inside. The loneliness I hide. I try to fight it but can't deny it. I wish that I could die. The anger and the emptiness. Suppressing all I feel.
I'm standing strong Planning to live long Nose to the grindstone I gotta go on I gotta keep going No time to sleep Grabbing all I can I got achievements to meet I got ambitious and...
Standing strong You can't knock me down Cos I know where I belong. Reaching for the top I'm gonna make it up there whether you want me to or not. I won't be stopped.
Standing strong You can't knock me down Cos I know where I belong. Reaching for the top I'm gonna make it up there whether you want me to or not. I won't be stopped.
I'm stronger, I'm tougher but life seems rougher. Things are really bad I spend the day staring at my shoes. But lifting my chin to look at the sky makes me stronger than I knew.
Sugar and caffeine are such a treat It fills up my senses and won't let me sleep. My eyeballs are buzzing my legs want to hop. I'm running like crazy someone help me to stop.
Pain and the failures The high and the lows The hardship and happiness My ebony woes You slapped my face to stop all my laughter I turned around and just laughed out faster I tried to dream and...
So it seems it must be fathers day today. I don't keep track because I don't know my father. But in keeping with the theme of today, thanking fathers, I want to thank mine.
Inspired by @smellyfingers and his recent unveil. I thought I'd share why I hide myself here and to friends... What do you do if your ashamed about you.
This maybe a little explicit. Just wanted to vent about feelings I had in the past. I sometimes worry it'll all come back when times get hard. I'm sitting here alone and quiet.
This maybe a little explicit. Just wanted to vent about feelings I had in the past. I sometimes worry it'll all come back when times get hard. I'm sitting here alone and quiet.
The excitement the adrenaline, all running through my veins. These are the moments I've been waiting for all my days. To feel something. Anything. Especially this warmth within my being.
My lonely heart cries out but no one seems to hear. I fear my life's pain and sorrow has become to much to bare. Why should I pick up these pieces of my life that have never fitted together.
You use to be my world, everywhere I looked I saw you. Now that you've left what will I do. How do I get up and remember to breathe. How do I open my eyes and continue to see.
This small little pill in the palm of my hand. Is this salvation or delusion. Will you save me from drowning. Bring my head up above water so that I can breathe the refreshing clear or air.
The freedom of the streets. Fresh air enveloping me as the atmosphere soothes my soul. My mind calms and emptys as the stress and worries disappear into the night..
The empty streets The warm glow of street lights. The calm that falls over when the sun goes down and the night blankets everyone with the peace of the night..
Sometimes winning just means surviving.
They say you only fail when you stop trying. That's because the real strength and victory is that you keep trying..
If you couldn't bother with me at my worst times, you turned and fled. Then do you deserve me during my better times?.
When the rivers of creativity are trapped in a damn of high walls. Locking in the ideas and creativity away from the dry pages eagerly awaiting the rivers of imagery and stories.
The emptiness clutching me all around. The cold invading my skin and icy to the touch. This is isolation. This is life..
The quiet dark night. The echo of the slow ticking tock, waiting for the dawn. Night is when you can't escape yourself. You can't escape the mistakes, the lies and the hurtful things you said.
If you don't help a stranger in need, who will. Who will hold the hand of a lost child. Who will clean the wounds of a bloody stranger. Who will help the neighbour screaming out in pain.
Invincibility lies in the defence.
I see so many people who apparently need to use crutches or walking sticks. So naturally they have one but don't know how to use them.
I see so many people who apparently need to use crutches or walking sticks. So naturally they have one but don't know how to use them.
If you ever get knocked down, make sure you hit the ground running..
When your tired of waiting for your perfect partner or maybe even considering settling, just remember. Hold on, they're getting to you as fast as they can x☺.
You gotta work hard to earn more. Guess I'll just sleep when I'm dead.
What do you do when someone keeps trying to give you advice but it's all useless?.
Communication can be really difficult. Whether is between different languages, ideas or personalities. But I'm hoping in the end it will be difficult (fingers crossed).
What's the point of leaving work when you'll only have to go back. It's a never ending vicious cycle :(.
Why do you only realise what you've said sounds silly and gay AFTER you've pressed send. Texts should have a recall feature like emails..
How do you forgive. What do you do when you should forgive buy cant?.
Lying all alone at night, looking up into the sky. Wonder what tomorrow will bring if I wish upon that shooting star..
Love only gives you the greatest feeling of happiness, so that eventually it can give you the greatest feeling of pain. Love is a tragedy.
You think how tough life is when your little. You think it's unfair your told what to do and can't buy what you want. The one thing we thought was preventing us from being happy.
Now the dust has settled, the anger and pain are done. This is the time that can will tell, who we have become. Do we know are sins and crimes, we surely can't turn back time.
Exposé my heart and expose my soul. Leave me open, naked and cold. Do I dare let it free. The secret person inside of me. Do I show the world what I've become. This cold and broken lonely one..
Being snuggly cocooned in a warm soft duvet. Need I say more?.
Is there such a thing as true joy. When good things happen in your life, something happens to take it away from you. Should we see things as good luck or a warning to beware?.
Can anyone be so smart without also being at least a little bonkers. Maybe it's that touch of madness that allows them to be inciteful?.
It takes several muscles to frown, It takes only two muscles two smile. Then again those two muscles can be used to punch someone!.
It takes several muscles to frown, It takes only two muscles two smile. Then again those two muscles can be used to punch someone!.
It takes several muscles to frown, It takes only two muscles two smile. Then again those two muscles can be used to punch someone!.
Ode to be wanted.
Could you imagine if the evolution of relationships developed in reverse. What if the in old days it was normal and expected for same gender relationships and only straight relationships to procreate.
Clearly some of you have guessed I don't like family. So I've recently moved out. Yay to freedom but somehow I think I feel lonelier. I'm in a new area where I don't know anyone. Any ideas?.
So I'm walking home and I see an old lady pulling out of her drive way with an apple on her hand. Really?!.
All alone, wrapped in my solitary cone..
All alone, wrapped in my solitary cone..
I lie awake, alone at night. Looking at the pale moonlight. I cast my mind back to that day, everything went wrong for me. The rain was pouring, my mum was yelling.
I walk along these quiet halls, these empty rooms and creaky floors. Everywhere I look I see, all these haunting memories. I turn a corner and down the stairs, deeper deeper in nightmares..
So from what I've seen or heard people usual question or have no faith in God because either there's no proof of His existence or refuse to believe his existence because bad things still happen.
If life was simple we wouldn't enjoy it as much.
Some words are too hard to say, regardless how necessary.
Is it me or would this type of blogger work really well. I wish there was a website for this. Sometimes the iPhone screen is just not enough to express yourself..
It's an amazing feeling when people around you suddenly come together to support you without being asked. Really it feels like the ending of its a wonderful life.
It's an amazing feeling when people around you suddenly come together to support you without being asked. Really it feels like the ending of its a wonderful life.
When are excuses no longer enough. You see the world for what it is. Not just black and white, but all the greys in between. You know the world is full of obnoxious people.
The light shines brighter than it ever has. Pouring in through the exit of this isolated, cold and lonely cave. Finally, drawer closer than I ever dreamed possible, to the mouth of this hellish cave.
Pride really does come before a fall. It's the cautious one who see the fall in time to avoid it.
After a week of cold and damp weather, the sun is finally beaming through my window. The golden light bathing my room in warmth and joy. Almost as if to welcome better days.
Need to play some summertime tunes. Any suggestions.
Why won't people try to fix their problems. Offer to do all the work, offer them a hand and they spit on it. Why?!.
The feint breeze of freedom quickly slipping through my fingers. I feel it's faint presence, unable to grasp or visual this far away dream..
It's hard to find somewhere to hang my hat and call home.
It seems like yesterday, was just a dream. But those days are gone, just memories....
It seems like yesterday, it was just a dream. But those days are gone, they're just memories....
It seems like yesterday, it was just a dream. But those days are gone, they're just memories....