I'm a proud Irish Directioner named Meghan.. People always say I seem older than I actually am.. Maybe my experiences aged me. Who knows? But I'm far from mature :p I'm me.. Nobody will ever change that, no matter how hard they try. And trust me, they try. "I'm just a girl, trying to find a place in this world.." "Don't make me stay the night, or ask if I'm alright.. 'Cause I don't have the answer." "And you're tied together with a smile, but you're coming undone.." "Don't listen to a word I say.. The screams all sound the same." "I'm trying to be okay, I'm trying to be alright.." "I'm sorry I can't be perfect." "You're broken and scarred, nothing feels right.." "You might think I'm bulletproof, but I'm not." "You're the closest thing to Hell I've seen so far." "I'm holding every breath for you."
How can I complete you; When we met just days ago. How can I believe you; When you don't call my phone. How can I feel this way... When nothing else feels right.
Guns and blood and fighting It's "just another war" I honestly can't believe it We've seen this all before. But people keep on fighting, More nameless faces gone How can this be right..
His big blue eyes, Searching my soul, My strangled goodbyes, His heart no longer whole. "No," I whisper, Tears clouding my view. "I have no future..
Out of sight, Out of mind, Like one deaf Or one blind. Tears on cheeks Cries of "No!" On her knees. "Please don't go.".
Wait until the end of time Wait until I call you mine Your golden hair, Your sapphire eyes.. I really think I've lost my mind..
Just wrote a bucket list. Yeah, I'm a big dreamer :P.
Thanks to some amazing boosters from a very special friend, I'm back. I have no idea what I'll write, but I'm back :D.
It's weird to know your destiny. It's weirder to know why it is..
Why am I so disappointed. I should've known not to be excited in the first place. I ruin everything.. For myself, and everyone else..
Two weeks ago, I promised you guys a story. It'll come, but I've been having some issues in life. It's not easy at the moment, so you'll have to forgive me for the delay. Sorry guys :/.
You've taken everything else from me. Stop trying to take my pride too. Stop talking about me like I'm some lesser being. I'm a person too. I'm worth the effort that you didn't put in.
You were oblivious for 13 years. I let you in a bit and you stayed. One joke, one simple joke, ruined it all..
Hey guys. I know I promised you a new story, and that you shall get. I just need to work out some details.
I always knew you'd leave. It's the fact that I was right that hurt..
I wish you knew you are the reason I want to stop breathing.. The one I used to take every breath for..
You promised you wouldn't leave. Over and over and over.. You said it again and again.. "Always and Forever.
Everything keeps getting better. *Sarcasm* Any more bad news?.
I just need to keep breathing. It won't help. It won't make me feel better. So why should I?.
If one person cared.. Really, truly cared, I wouldn't be in this mess..
---AN: I really wanna finish this so I can start my new story.. So this is the last part.
I'm sick of hurting you, But I can't let you go. Stop caring. Please. I'm sick of hurting you, So let me go. Stop caring. Please..
I really want a Furby. If someone tells me why, I'll post the next part of my story. MWAHAHHAHAHHAHHAHAH. Love you guys. Peace, Meghan xox.
"Liam, don't go!" I yelled pointlessly. He couldn't hear me. I ran after him. I don't know why. What could I do to help him.
~~~~I know, it's been so long since I've posted some of this.. But they'll get more regular after this.. I hope.
You are the freedom with which I live, This is the world, which to you I'd give. You are the blood which runs through my veins, You are the medicine, you dull the pain. You are forever.
All that.. It was just pity. Oh. I'm sorry. I guess I should've never let myself believe that you cared..
"Silence is a girl's loudest cry. You know she's upset when she starts ignoring you.".
People look for answers to the unanswerable simply to keep hoping that there's something to look for..
Just a little rant. Many parents complain that their teenage kids need attitude adjustments.
I haven't posted the next part of my story, as I was in hospital last night and I am now exhausted. So hopefully tomorrow..
I'm nearing the end of my story, so I want to know you guys' guesses as to what is going to happen,, No reason why, just pure curiosity :P And... GO!.
What's the point of holding everything in, if people still tell you to stop complaining?.
He got his way. Somehow, some way, Liam convinced my parents to bury me in Rathduff, where my three remaining grandparents lived. He knew I'd love to be away from the bad memories.
In the midst of all this torment, Of the anguish, love and hate, I look up to the sky, And think of Heaven's gate.
I ran home. There was nothing left to do. As I walked up the driveway, I heard arguing. My parents. Even when I was dead, they couldn't stop arguing. I paused outside. "LISTEN TO ME NOW, REBECCA.
Wake up and hold me. Run through the incessant rain to my front door, Hold me. Tell me it's going to be okay, even if it's not. Kiss me. Wake up. Wake up and hold me. NOTE: I have no clue what this...
Note: Sorry for the delay.. Loads going on. I couldn't face seeing my parents. No way. I took a last glance at Liam's crying form and walked out the door. I didn't know what was happening. I was...
Sorry I haven't posted any of my story in two days.. There's been a lot going on. I will be posting more ASAP..
Why do things keep moving on; From the twilight, to the dawn. Why do things move on as so; When I couldn't feel more low. Why do things keep on the move; When I have so much to prove?.
That's when I smelled it. His cologne. Liam. He must've been hanging out with Lindsey, and heard the shot. Must've run straight here. Thanks, Liam, but it's too late.
It was too late. I had made my decision. Made the decision to end it all. It was too late. I did change one of my decisions, though.
I almost laughed as I picked up the gun. It'd be too easy. No note, no tears, nothing. Only the sound of the gunshot and the second of searing pain. I have 30 minutes until they're home.
Is it right to cry for being hurt, when you brought the hurt on yourself. Is it right to pine after the only one with the power to break you, which they use.. Every. Single. Day.
@hailey0808 HAPPY BIRTHDAY.
You were never mine, Free to love another, Yet my tears are pouring, Making my body writhe and shudder..
I don't know. Maybe we can get through things alone. Maybe we need help. It's a low blow; When people you love let you down. But maybe things can get better. Maybe life's a show..
Guess I didn't mean that much, then. I'm sorry my existence disrupted your plans..
"There's two dates in time that they'll carve on the stone, and everyone knows what they mean.
Deeper.. I'm falling. Deeper.. I'm drowning. Deeper.. I'm calling. Deeper.. I'm frowning. Deeper.. I need you..
I'll probably add more to this later.. Poetry has swift release, But a crowd is hard to please, So when I cannot write a verse.. It's both a blessing and a curse..
Sometimes I wonder if anyone really grasps how much pain I'm in. Then I feel selfish as I realise somebody else is in worse. But in that selfish moment.. I'm scared. Scared of what I'll do.
Wealth is the secret that nobody keeps, Wealth is what causes the poor to weep. Wealth is the lie behind every truth, Wealth is the crippled voice of the mute.
It would take five seconds. Not even. To never see anything again. But something holds me back, makes me look up as the evening sun sinks lower into the sky. Nobody cares, I remind myself.
If you think about it, the definition of 'love' has changed a lot. William Shakespeare wrote Romeo and Juliet as a true love story, but is that how things really were back then.
Arise, arise, through it all.. And thus the mighty, Shall not fall..
She closed her eyes, And wished for death, Blocking the tears, And taking a breath. Her heart was broken, Her eyes unsure, Her blood was seeping, Onto the floor.