You.
I hate rhyme schemes..
Always. 17. Wave Rider. Fire Breather. Remember <3
I hate rhyme schemes..
I'm waiting for you to text me, Or Facebook me, Or tweet me. But you can't because you're dead..
I feel numb. I feel like I can't feel..
Somedays I want to cut. I think it's because I have so much inside me. I have so much turmoil. So many feelings of grief. And loss. And the fact you were only sixteen.
The Sun, The moon, The you, The me, We are all opposites you see, But somehow we create, a beautiful piece of hate..
When another guy comes near me, I get a new feeling. It's not you, And I know it.
One more boy that fell for my spell. I must be very alluring. I must be very manipulative. Too bad it's not the boy I want to be with. It's a boy that wants me to commit to him, And I cannot do that.
I want to feel your hands with mine. I want to feel your hands on me. I need to feel us together. I want you to need me. I need you to need me, Because if you don't that makes me the weak one.
Are you home yet. Because I am, And I'm alone in a group of people. Except you. I can see you, And I need to feel you. And I need you to feel me too..
I feel so hollow, And I realize I have no self respect. I realize that I tell myself that all of these guys truly like me, They want to be with me. But they don't.
Forget it all, I'm in love with you..
Boy in my math class, You are such a flirt. Words you do harass. And i know we both put on a show. Love is just below. The emotions that we feel, Love for us isn't real.
And every time I kiss you, I wish it was my first. Because each one has a story. And each one is perfect..
I feel hollow inside. And its your turn to care. What does this mean. The way you speak to me, Or the way we shadow each other?.
The stillness of the room, allowed the brokeness to loom..
I was mad at you. I was mad at you because you didn't ask to be my friend on any social media site. How stupid I was. We fought the last time we spoke, And now I don't have the chance to apologize..
My body curls into itself so I can fit with my laptop and a blanket in the bathtub. In the white sides I can see my face, red with streaks of tears. The laptop sings to me and I cry for you..
When I hear the songs they played when you became one with the river.
Why would I kiss you, Why would I invite this rekindled fire in me. What was I thinking. What were you thinking. Since you kissed me after..
I tried that morning, to hide the cuts the cement created on my shoulders and wrists and knees. Long boarding was the best way for me to communicate with the dead boy even if I payed with the pain.
I sit with you at lunch everyday. I text you whenever I think of you. I listen to you talk. I tell you how you're the best. I compliment your photographs. And I mean it all.
I can whore around forever, But that won't put us together. He's in love with her, And I'm in love with he. I need to forget this, But I can't let it be.
Constellations when in high, And babe I won't tell you amy more lies. Stars that line on your forearms, Dark circles under your eyes, It looks like the milky way took you by surprise.
If I write that you're gone enough times, If I write your dead, Maybe I'll start to believe it. This feeling of shock, I'll shed. Before I pray for you to open the Earth, And come back..
It's so ironic, How the only stanza you ever wrote, Told your way to your grave, The final line "in the end I bleed" And a car hit you.
Count the stars, Then look into his blue eyes. Wait for the infectious smile he has, To cause a pandemic on your heart. Stare at his photography, Until you think you know him.
Fall in love With the boy You stare at. Count the veins on his arms. Count the waves on the beach. Look in his eyes and wait for his soul. One day he will know how broken you were.
I don't know who I am I don't know who I want to be and it scares me. It scares me so bad..
We should fall in love. We would sit under the stars. And you would tell me all about your theories. We could count the passing cars, And you'd upset the furies.
Skip a meal, dance away. You'll be skinny, in a day. Look at your hips, See the scars, Look past and think "where are my bones?".
Every birthday I'll wish for you, Even though it won't come true..
Please just cry, your brother was killed. Please just cry, It'll make me feel. Please just cry, My dear lost sheep. Please just cry, And make a grief leap. Please just cry, I know you should.
But he was only sixteen, And he would have had a life. He was only sixteen, And death shouldn't have touched him. He was only sixteen, With thoughts of immortality.
I am from broken smiles. I take life in mascara running for laughter. I am from broken people. I am from silent tears. I am from abusive joy. I am from the city over.
Hold your breath, And count to ten. Try your hardest, To comprehend. You love me, But can't see, The girl I used to be..
Why do people who deserve nothing, receive everything?.
Do you see how the negatives take life in this fluid. Do you see how they compose themselves. It's amazing is it not.
My stomach drops when I hear your voice. And I know it sounds pathetic, But it's the truest thing I've said all day. Because I want you to need me too..
Sometimes someone needs to wake you up from your fairy tale and usually it's the one you're dreaming about..
And it doesn't make sense to me, how I stand and wait for a prescription I don't even need. The best cure for what I have is a little time and some goddamn sleep..