The Countdown

The countdown began many weeks ago,
Until I shatter to the ground,
But how long the countdown was I didn't know.

I kept myself together,
Giving everyone the fake smile,
I knew it would be soon- only a little while.

Every single night I would cry myself to sleep,
Thinking what would happen in the future,
But then my alarm clock would beep.

I then get to school like everything is alright,
Smiling not crying was the challenge,
Breaking in front of everyone is my fright.

But last night when I got home the countdown did stop,
I lay on my bed,
and let every tear drop.

How longer can I do this? I keep thinking everyday,
I'm going to do this- be happy,
But all the memories still stay.