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You’re not the first thing I think about when I wake up anymore. I finally feel free.

Not better, just free.

SianRLD

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Have you listened to 'Stronger' by Sara Evans before? You seem to be in a similar situation to me & that's one of the songs that helps me when I'm down :)

But obviously you still do, at time to time. And to be so thoughtful in your description.

@brownowl2012 I haven't heard 'Stronger' but I shall look it up now😌 Some days are just fine, pain in my heart subsides & I feel as if I'm moving

(clumsy send button😠) as if I'm moving forward. But then the next day the searing ache in my heart comes back & knocks me off my feet all over again. I'm definitely in a better place than I was, but think its going to take me years to get over properly😔 Love your posts by the way😌

@Trialrun1 Yes, some days it IS the first thing I think about. But it doesn't hurt quite as much as it did, because I really try not to let it 😔

That's the spirit.

@SianRLD I have good & bad days too. End of November last year my boyfriend of 16 months broke up with me completely out of the blue. I've been through a hell of a lot in the last few years & he had become my absolute rock so when he left me I just didn't know how to cope. We've tried to stay friends but he's not made it easy & he very quickly had someone else in his life. Some days I'm fine & we can share a laugh again but a lot of the time I'm still very confused & hurt. Don't think I'll ever get 'over' him but slowly slowly I'm getting stronger again :)

@brownowl2012 Sorry for delay in replying. Sounds like you've had a really difficult time & I can relate totally to how you are feeling. My situation was way too complicated to attempt to explain here & now, but suffice to say, I've had my share of heartbreak. I was involved for 5yrs & although we broke up briefly a couple of times, it finally ended completely nearly a year ago. I know that in the long run it was the best decision for both of us, & looking back, I can see that I gave far more of myself than he ever did. Another factor was the timing....another place, a different time & we'd have been perfect. And yet despite all this, the memory lingers daily & part of me still believes, in fact KNOWS, that I'll never share or experience events or feelings with anyone else, in quite the same way I did with him. It must be torturous for you to still be friends, when it's still all so raw for you. In previous years we attempted that, but always ended up back together. This time it's been a clean break...I think that's the only choice we had. I'm definitely getting better, but I'd give anything to have a day, just ONE day, when he wasn't haunting my thoughts 😔

Bright side guys? I've never been in a relationship, but would love to experience it. And hope one day I do. And will. (getting old now so not as optimistic. )

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