Heroine Of The Heart

As I feel the liquid course through my veins
I know that I can't ever be the same
I look back on my life and the troubles it held
I wonder what all I haven't fulfilled

My parents, my brother, and my little baby sis
What will happen to them when I do this?

What if they need me?
What will I do?
I block it all out; try to make a new tune

I tie off my arm, ready for a new
Unknown bacteria to enter me too

We share the same needle
We share the same food
They say we are brothers,
But I am no fool

I can see what is happening
But I really don't care
I want this heroine to
Kill me or spare

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I'd like to say that this is an allegory. I'm not a drug user, nor do I drink or anything else. I'm not going to say what it stands for because the fun of an allegory is to apply it to yourself and if looked at analytically, then it is to guess my meaning with no true affirmation.