I remember taking that first step out towards the point where the water meets the beach. The way the cold grains of sand rush in between my toes as I bury my feet in during my approach. More importantly, I remember that you were still there. I don't really know what happened to us and even if I could begin to understand, I would have no idea how to help it. Maybe it was the comment I made about your religion. I really meant nothing by it. I'm not one of those hard faced atheists that think they have to be right. I could very well be wrong, but it's what I believe. Then again, you never seemed to be one that would take it that seriously.
When I speak to you now, you don't seem... Angry. More so just absent. We had a connection before; One that you could feel before anything important was even said. I lye awake at times and stare at my ceiling fan rotating in circles before I bat my eyes for the final time before the next sunrise and wonder what you're doing. We used to talk all night and fall asleep on the phone together. I haven't been able to replace that time. I doubt I ever will. Sometimes I'll go through your social networks, look through some pictures. My friends call it creeping, but I call it caring. You don't seem upset or anything. Maybe you're better off without me. I always only wanted you to be happy. Then again, you don't seem necessarily happy either. I see you have met a guy. I hope he treats you right. I'm not much of a threatening figure, but I know that I would fight for you if he hurts you again. I say again, of course, because it seems as though he has broken your heart before. He may have not cheated, but neglecting is a pretty bad thing. Believe me, I've been there. Makes you feel worthless, but damn... You're so much more than you could even know. So maybe in your next fight or if you ever lye awake in thought as I do, try thinking about all that you deserve and if nothing more, do what I do when I want to cry about you; When I Was Your Man by Bruno Mars. I'm not much of a pop fan, but that gets me every time. I need to go now. It's getting late and my fan seems to be calling from the comfort of my sheets. I hope you're happy with him. Good night, love.
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Thanks. I started writing that as just a relief to get stuff off my mind and decided to post it just because. @jrhuff5
@alec no kidding -- oh well, as long as there are a few decent guys like you left, I think we'll be alright
@myriam21511 oh don't be sad, she's quite happy in her life I think and that's all I need. I'm content and it sure gives me something to write about seeing that I am not a writer by any stretch! Thank you though. I'm glad it could evoke an emotion, even if it was sad..
I'm the same age and I dated her for a year and 7 months and then something happened and although I loved her, well, love her, she just stopped dating me somehow. There were no fights or breakups. I just understood from then on out that we were back to just being friends. It's like almost 2 years just reverted and it seemed to her like it was no big deal. If she were to have broken up with me rather than do whatever she did, I would have let it go by now and if you've hit the 2 year mark and you are both very in love, I'd say you have good odds. I feel as though my situation is very strange and rare and I don't understand what happened yet myself so if I figure out, I'm sure it will end up on here. I like this app for venting, not to
Yeah I see, but fights happen for everyone. I'm sure you'll do well. @myriam21511 and I tried to talk to her about it many times, but she just plays it off. For example, I asked "What happened to us.?" And she said "Oh I just thought you wanted to be friends." And I said "Of course not, we were almost at 2 years. What have you that idea?" And she just said "I don't really know. Nothing you said, more of a vibe." She's a smart girl and she's very nice and usually direct, but that seems nothing like her. If she didn't love me anymore or whatever, normally I would expect her to just tell me. We were very open with each other even in our fights.
Yeah I thought about that. I guess you have to kind of know her, but then again, I might not really know her... She just never had a problem being direct before and now she wants to be my friend and talk a lot and it kills me. She has a boyfriend now that has done some bad stuff for sure and there are rumors of other stuff and yet she stays with him and I just don't get it. Oh well. Thank you for talking it out. You're very kind. I'm sure you and your boyfriend will have a great life ;)@myriam21511
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