22 July 2012
I used to pretend I never hit that low. Just pushed it out, pretended it wasn't there. But I realize now, I only did that because I was still in that hole. Yes, I had torn away from the drugs and things that were clawing at my ankles, that was easy, But I was still carrying around a backpack full of anxiety and depression. Now that I've thrown that into the river I see. I take a minute to look around. I've stopped worrying about covering up my past, and can admit to my mistakes, admit to my fears, and best of all I've said sorry, to the one who deserved it most. I am now free of chains. This wonderful clarity is making me smile. I've stopped thinking about what I don't have, and just started loving everything I do have.
And I must be honest, as much as the people in my life helped me realize this, Opuss and Mckinley played a big part in this too.
Everyone on opuss welcomed me. People actually like my writing, that is an honor I love and cherish.
Mckinley, I know its kind of weird, but I'm an awkward person so it doesn't matter. I'm sure you already think I'm a freak anyways. Your little "You're the best" 's and our short conversations always make me smile, and hearing your story's just gives me new hope.. I don't know why, but your just... Awesome. I love you, dude.
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