18 July 2012
In my previous post you will see the storm of challenges and problems Im going through. These issues have burdened me constantly to the point of depression. I cant sleep and if I do fall asleep i wake up every hour and the first thing that goes to my head are the problems and uncertainty i have to face. I completely lost my appettite and have lost 4 kilos. I cant laugh. I cant even breathe. I have to remind myself to take a deep breath. Yes thats how bad things are for me now.
Last July 16, 2012 was my late dads birthday. I havent gone to church in the past 5 years and i havent visited my dads grave in a few months, even if his grave is easily accessible. On my dads birthday though, I visited his grave. I broke down in front of his grave. Prayed a few common prayers and begged him to help me. I literally begged for help. When youre down and out you beg. After 15 minutes, i left and had to meet some friends who were trying to cheer me up by watching a movie, by the way, that didnt work.
That same evening back home while I was in bed getting ready to try to sleep it happened. All of a sudden i felt a tingling sensation all over me. I felt so positive. I was literally smiling. I was wondering what came over me. Then i realized it was my dad hugging me from heaven. It felt so wonderful. I felt certain the things will work out. I felt assured that nothing bad will happen. While i was feeling this sensation of positivity i was trying to keep it and prolong it. I wanted to share it too by posting on facebook and by texting some friends that " I feel my daddy hugging me now". Yes some friends freaked out which is understandable I felt so good and i was cherishing the moment. In fact i felt so good i was able to eat a big midnight snack! I felt at peace, I felt so assured that things are going to be amazing! That night i was able to sleep like a baby. It was a very restful sleep the type that when i woke up i was smiling.
I guess im sharing this so I can let people know you can pray and ask help from love ones that have passed. I am not religious even if im am born and raised catholic. Im what some would call a selective Catholic. But this experience strengthened the fact that people are watching over us we just need to ask them for help.
I am still problematic but i am certain i will get over this and when i look back at this. Im sure ill say that things fell into place and things worked out.
Hug From Heaven • Opuss № I