5 May 2012
I got incredibly drunk last night. Today I lay in bed staring out the window, thinking.
I thought about how much I would like to have faith.
I would like to know that this life is only the beginning. That there is a reason for everything.
I would like to feel the love of a god. To commit my life to being a better person and have the courage to go to church and lead a simple life.
What stops me?
I don't think wanting to believe is enough? I remember going to church as a boy and feeling warmth, peace but I lost faith as an adult and I no longer believe.
Faithless • Opuss № I