22 November 2012
After you left, I knew things would be different. Not a day goes by that I don't remember that cold starless night. The night that you left me on. Ill admit, at first I was shattered, torn to bits, but I learned to let it roll right off my shoulders since the accident. It was late in December that you told me you never wanted to see me again, and me (being the fool that I was) just stood there. I didn't put up a fight because I knew it wouldn't have mattered to you. To this very day, your words still echo in my head. The day of my birthday too. You looked me square in the eye and told me you never wanted to see me again. I was so "in love" at the time that after you left I just wanted to end everything. So I did. It was a Friday night. I had nothing to do but sit and think about you, the way you'd done me, and that you were gone. I just couldn't take it. I got up and walked out to the balcony of the apartment that I lived in. I looked down. I lived on the fifth floor so if I were to jump I'd most certainly die. I stood there and thought long and hard about it until finally, I had made up my mind. I hurled myself over the railing and fell freely. I closed my eyes and waited until finally SPLAT! I had hit rock bottom. I should've died that night and for a moment i had but he somehow managed to bring me back. He saved me by creating me into what I am now. By now you've noticed, I'm not human. I'm sorry but any human that hurls themselves from the fifth floor of their apartment and somehow live is not human. Although I'm not really alive anymore. You see it was Alec who changed me. He saw me laying broken, crumpled, and bleeding out on the ground and gave me a chance to restart. Boy did I ever. He'd changed me into a vampire. For some reason after I'd turned completely I didn't turn out like all the other vampires, I turned into a physic vampire. I don't know how or why. It has its ups for instance: I don't drink blood, I draw energy which is a lot more convenient. I don't draw enough to drain people I just draw enough to get me by. I only take what I need and then I leave. Other than that I am like every other vampire. I don't have to eat (I do to keep up with this human stuff), I don't sleep, and I don't have to breath. Compared to all the other vampires I'm strong and fast. I don't fool with jobs because I don't need one I do however seek justice and will do whatever it takes to keep my lives and the lives of others safe. Especially Alec's I would do everything in my power to secure his safety as he would for me.
Monster • Opuss № I