15 April 2012
And on this night
I poured my heart and soul out to my bedroom walls.
I let the tears do the talking
the sobbing
and the crying.
I painted my room with colours of anguish, confusion,
pain and delusion.
Then I looked in the mirror to check who was looking back.
And I found no one I had seen before.
I am but a shell of my former self,
the other me shoved away on a shelf.
I grapple at my skin to seek what is within and all the time
I'm withering... withering away.
The old me has gone and is never coming back.
She left me to face this world on my own.
And now I don't know whether to stay
or
to
go.
Alone • Opuss № I