22 December 2012
I looked at her, her ocean blue eyes looking dull. Her once glowing and shiny blonde hair, looked faded, colorless. Her bright white and beautiful straight teeth didn't show, covered by her sad frowning lips. Where was the girl I use to know, where was the beautiful and outgoing girl I met at the dock. The one I walked on the beach with, the one the swam in the waves with, the one I spent my summer with, the one I fell in love with. She wasn't there, her soul, nor eyes didn't shimmer at the sight of me. She looked skinnier, tired, and just exhausted. The life and will to live was draining out of her, yet I didn't know how to save her, to make sure she didn't lose herself. I love her, but I don't know if she remembers what love is anymore.
"Holly, please talk to me..." I plead. Silence, as usual. I've been begging her to make a noise, speak, make a sound of any kind. Just so I know she's alive, that she can hear me pleading for her to come back to me. But I've remained in silence, just watching her eyes blink and look outside the window. I can feel tears prick at my eyes, it's time for me to leave...forever.
I gently stroke her cheek, once warm and inviting, now cold and isolated. Tears start flowing down my cheeks, her eyes slowly move to my face. Her blank expression turns from confusion, to sadness. I can't handle it anymore. I slowly get up and kiss her gently on her forehead. Finally I walk away, leaving the one I love behind.
I go to turn the knob, but something stops me. I have to, just one more time. I slowly turn and look at her beautiful features. "I..I love you Holly, I always have and always will...". My voice cracks, as I look back down at the dull white tiles. I turn the knob and open the door, depression, sadness, loss of hope and faith, and pain flood into my emotions. Finally, I walk away, it's time.
Hi, I'm David Carter, my girlfriend Holly Jay Martin lost her memory and and has severe brain damage after a boating accident. The doctors say she will never speak of respond again, but I had always had hope. Today I left, I left Holly behind, because I can't look at the one I love and know I'm just a stranger in her eyes. I love her very much, but I guess it wasn't meant to be...
Walking Away • Opuss № I