2 June 2012

Every night I think about how I've climbed into a shell these past weeks and I can't find a valid reason for doing so. Unless you count betrayal or pain. Both are deadly with gut wrenching clarity. I gave you my trust, it was yours to do with as you pleased.

Typically, my luck meant I got tugged at further despite all I gave up for you to call you my friend. Every word.

Did it mean a thing?

I got hurt, so what?

I took a chance on a new connection. I grasped it. Felt it. Needed it.

Yet... Somehow, It meant nothing To you.

I think I give up. The pain.

Too much.

CynicausticOpuss № I