5 November 2012
I guess I haven't felt like myself lately... I've been having these dreams... Many dreams... For many nights... Of you... They don't hold meaning anymore... I don't wake up feeling terrible about it anymore... Nor do I wake up and feel good about it... I just wake up... I think I came to the realization that you're not there besides me when I wake up because... You were never real...
I'm not the same... Nor am I different... I'm something apart... Same person... Same feelings... Different look... Different ideals... Have I changed at all? I don't feel like myself... But I've heard I'm the same... Could it just be this again...?
Am I just a figment of my own imagination...? A strong portrayal of a person I want to be...?
A person with doubts... A person with fears... A person with hope... A person with confusion... A person with complication... A person with a heart... A person with desire...
Am I just a strong entity that controls...? Controlling machine... Controlling minds... Controlling images... Controlling memories... Controlling sounds... Just to make you think I am there...?
Reality • Opuss № I