14 June 2012
Chapter 13
He simply said those words. I was holding his hands. Then he said hug me or maybe hold me tight.
" put your feet on mine". He said it with a playful smile. " safety first". I said with a smile. " do you want to close your eyes?". He asked me while we stood on the edge of the window. He was leaning outside while his wings were growing bigger.
" no, but if you can kiss me and fly at the same time that will be fine". I said it cause I knew he might say yes let's kiss while taking of. " are you holding me tight, so you won't fall?". " yes". I was in his arms, looking under me there was just darkness. He smelled so good and he was warm, I didn't think it's because it was a summer night. It was him.
He stopped and I heard the waves. We were in the sky, and beneath us was the ocean. " James, this is beautiful". I said it as I looked down. Gently he removed his right hand from my waist and took my chin to look in my eyes, then he said. " you are beautiful, and I am glad you are mine. Cause you are my love". He said it looked deep in my eyes then kissed me again. In the background there was the moonlight and the sound of the waves. But we stood so near I heard his heartbeats. I was hearing the heartbeats of an angel.
" I love you". I said to him. I could not hold it in me anymore. I thought about him daily. He held me to sleep and cared about me like nobody else.
" I love you too, and I won't stop loving you". " I have a question. Why can't I ever visit heaven?". His face got focused on me he didn't even blink. " why do you-? If I tell you it might be trouble". He said. " how?" " we angels keep secrets for a reason, I keep yours because if I tell you, you might go to hell".
" what do you mean? As long as I am not able to know I will be stuck here and if I know I might go to hell?".
" yes, but there is something else. There is a chance you can go to heaven. But you can't do that" " why not?" " can't tell you, want to fly higher?". " no! You are going to tell me!". I said it with frustration. Every time we get this perfect moment it gets ruined by a hidden secret.
" let's fly back, you can't be up here while I tell you".
We took a longer way this time. Was he trying to make me sleepy? It didn't work, hopefully he knew it. I stepped inside my room, while his wings got smaller. When he walked in I noticed the little cuts in his t- shirt. I was thankful to not sleep in my pajamas. I wore sweatpants and a top.
" you will regret this". I heard him mumble something to himself. " ok, years before now. You hooked up with a guy. You and him had a relationship, a serious one. At that time people expected you to get married. Which you did".
Stupid me! I fell asleep. I didn't even hear the end of the story. All I could remember was him hugging me and telling me those words.
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