1 May 2012
I was in the car with Big Narstie, and I'm not gonna lie, he was really big. So we parked up somewhere that looked a bit dark and dangerous and he got out the car and knocked on some random blue door. Think he was after some drugs. So I jumped into the drivers seat like Xena warrior Princess but the brown version, driving without a licence and breaking the law although I'm a law student. I don't know when it happened but I ended up in Primark, but it was like Heavens version of Primark; all clean and white and empty, you know? So amidst my wandering suddenly I'm in the Hogwarts Great Hall and Dumbledore was there and he's telling me how I killed 3 of my friends and I'm crying, I'm crying so loud and I cant stop and the pain is immense and I can't breathe; I'm crying louder and louder and louder until next thing I know I'm in my kitchen cooking samosas for my sister and she looks at me and reminds me what I did, and I'm screaming now and I can't believe it's true; I can't believe they're dead and it's all because of me, and nobody around me understands and the pain rises up my chest, snatches my heart for its own, kidnaps my breathing; I collapse, and all the while the samosas are burning and they're shouting all around me but all I hear is muffled screams, and then random sums of money fly through my head, £500, £200, £300; I'm trying to understand it all but I can't, these thoughts are ripping my mind apart; I'm screaming out, screaming out, but no one comes and I realise I'm all alone, alone right until the very end and there ain't nothing or no one that can save me....
Next thing I know, I'm on the sofa dressed in white. All is calm, there are no sounds around me, just a beautiful, peaceful silence. I smile while I turn on the TV; anybody would look at me and presume I was happy. Either happy or deranged. Then my eyes open, I yawn, wipe the sleep out of my eyes and tell myself "ooh well, that was a good dream" as I drag myself from the abyss of nightmares which my bed has become.
Heaven's Primark • Opuss № I