23 June 2012
I learnt the alphabet with my best friend I learnt it when I was ten I didn't know it in English Others laughed She taught it to me And so many other things I sill remember her voice singing the song The letters ringing out in my mind She was there for me when I needed her And so A is for Alice.
I've always been an outcast A soul split by borders Cuts of coloured cloth excluding me It was hard for them to accept I've always wondered why It's been a big part of my life To fit it To be loved back Sometimes I feel so alone I try to hide my creativity To fit in And so N is for Neglect.
The sky has been an inspiration to me Living in the country Deep darkness above me Cold Clusters of hope shining down It inspired me Made my dreams a refuge A constellation taught to me My favourite book at the time had given it a name For that O is for Orion.
My parents won't divorce Or separate I try to love both But how to love fire with water? One always puts the other out I can't I sometimes wish for separation Like those thousands of times I was Separation is pain Do I really wish them that? Should I be loyal to one or the other? I'm self centred Though I don't hide the hatred for my self I still feed the monster inside me That's why S is for Selfish.
I'm very insecure I don't have much self esteem I hate reading my own work My own poems My own stories I need people to remind me of who I am Why I am And why I should carry on being I would be nothing without them It's only appropriate I say so R is for Reliance.
E is for Emergence When I found my self Put aside the hate The lies I discovered the power in words A grain of sad now grown into a pearl But sill dark A dark pearl But a pearl none the less I swore I'd change the world Will I keep that promise?
The final letter in me The facade I create When I meet new people At school In the street I hide who I am Because I'm scared of being judged Of being abandoned by friends I remind myself of Alice I think of the Neglect I picture Orion I curse my Selfishness And despise my Reliance But thank my Emergence And that's why P Is for Persona.
P Is For Persona • Opuss № I