15 November 2012
Sorry it's a little short but I patched it up over a few spare hours I had!
•Chapter 9 - Used To• •Kai• One second, I was holding her under. The next, I couldn't pull her out fast enough. I wrenched her up out of the water, grasping her dripping wet body in my arms. She was heavy, like dead weight. Panic spilled through my veins and washed around my stomach, giving me a sickly feeling. I could hear myself muttering: "No. No. No. No. No" over and over again, almost as if it would keep her alive. My usually rigid frame felt weak, almost as if it might collapse from pure depression and devastation. I fell to my knees and swiftly placed her down on the floor. I needed to stay focused. I cant think about the fact that her leg looks like it's been run over by a monster truck. I can't think about the fact that she's going to hate me forever if she survives. I can't think the word "If" without my heart literally snapping in half. I certainly can not think about the fact that she'll never love me after what I've done. That was all I wanted. All along. I just didn't know how to show it. Aggression was my only way. Now look what I've done. I've loved her so much I've killed her. She lay lifeless on the bathroom floor, the air silent and and already beginning to smell of fresh death. I nervously pulled at her dressing gown. Ok, just shut up, I'm not doing it like that. I can't give her CPR if she's wearing a freakin' parka. I undid the knot, and shut my eyes as I bared her body. I know she'd hate me seeing her like this, and she's going to kill me when she wakes up. When. Because she will. My hands found their way to her chest, and I crouched above her, keeping my eyes trained on hers. I began to save her life.
•Ammi• My first breath tasted like Kai. I could taste him on my lips. Smell him in the air. Feel his hands on me. See him in front of me. "Ammi" was all he said. I glanced around. My living room. What? And then I remembered. That devilish grin he had given, as he held me underwater and drained the life from my body. Kai had tried to kill me. I screamed. I screamed so loud. I tried to leap off the sofa, but my ankle gave a sharp stab of pain, I gasped and screamed louder, the pain reaching my throat in volume. The neighbours had to hear me. A passer by had to hear me. Someone had to hear me. warm arms clasped firmly yet gently around my waist. "Ammi, please calm down!" Kai told me over my continuous screaming. I wriggled and writhed, trying everything I could to get out of his grasp. I struggled and lashed out at him, but he skilfully dodged every one of my attacks. I broke down, and began to whimper, realising it was pointless. "Ammi, don't cry babe, I-" Kai said softly, gently rubbing his thumbs over my hip bones. His eyes were the same as his tone and touch. Soft. Gentle. I felt like asking "Who are you and what have you done with Kai?" But it felt stupid, so I just begged instead. "Kai, p-please, don't kill me, I'll do anything, I swear to god, I'll rob a bank, I don't care-" I babbled, making crazy hand gestures as I did so. "Ammi!" Kai yelled over me. I shook. But it wasn't a normal Kai yell. He was smiling. Grinning. Not even in a scary or perverted way. He was genuinely laughing at me. Chuckling. I amused him. "Huh?". "Ammi, I'm not going to hurt you, I swear to god. I'm done with that. I love you Ammi... I just, never thought you'd love me back, so I took advantage of you..." His voice faded out as he stared down at the sofa. I felt totally speechless at his sudden change of personality. I didn't know whether it was all a hoax. Was he going to act all sweet and caring and then throw me up against the wall? What was going on in his mind... I wish I knew. His pupils might as well have been two bright red hearts, pulsing with pure affection - because that's what his eyes were saying. They were saying "I love you". "Fuck!" I cursed as the words hit me. That's what he'd said. He'd said he loves me. I jerked backwards on the sofa, away from him, covering my mouth with my hands as I tried to remember how to breathe. Oh no. I squeezed my eyes shut and waited for it. I waited and awful long time actually. Maybe he was putting on some kind of glove 0.0 "What are you doing?" Came a chuckling tone that was right in front of me. I opened my eyes and hasn't realised he was so close, practically on top of me, giving a sharp scream and moving back again. He chuckled, not understanding my fear. I suddenly felt incredibly stupid. He's just... sitting there... Like a... Normal person... "Y-you didn't hit me". "No, I didn't" he looked at me, eyebrows raised, wondering where the conversation was going. "You used to hit me when I swear like that..." I mumbled, staring down into my lap Kai gave a small smile, and leaned towards me, pecking my lips gently. "Used to, Ammi. Used to".
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