8 December 2012
Sorry I know I said it wouldn't be late but I was obsessing over James Arthur <3 love him <3 anyway, here it is!!
•Chapter 16 - I Wasn't Finished• •Ammi• Understanding Kai was one of the hardest things I'd ever done in my entire life. Falling into the deep, intricate crevices of his mind, the ones untouched by anyone other than himself - the sickening, violent ones. I searched every inch of his brain, finding disturbing desires and pain-inducing thoughts, all of which oddly pleased him. I gasped as my soul and Kai's left each other again. I immediately felt empty without the presence of Kai in my head, gently moving through the paths of my mind as I did his. "I wanna go again" I told him as we held each other, still standing beside the door, Kai's hand bleeding and broken from the angry punch he had given my bedroom wall. "Ammi that's gonna be five times now, it's not good for either of us" he protested, looking weak and upset of the information he had found inside my head. Clearly my mind was filled with thoughts of fear of him, it didn't take a Soul Resonation for me to know that. This was the first time we'd ever been able to do it, resonate our souls. It didn't make sense how it worked now. We were right back at square one. "I wasn't finished" I told him, the urge to continue searching his brain a strong one. I still had a lot to cover. "I was" he replied, making my protestation worthless. I was tempted to say the words again, the words that would get me my wish, but I knew Kai wouldn't let me back in, so the Soul Resonation would fail, as he was unwilling - and if a weapon is unwilling, the Meister can get incredibly mentally hurt. Kai didn't seem to want to take that chance. From what I'd seen in his head, his violence only came when he felt like he wasn't getting enough attention from me. If he wanted attention, then fine. I'll give it to him, and he'll have no choice but to Soul Resonate with me. He came out of our embrace and walked out of my room. I followed him to the kitchen in my signature limp. He began to pour a glass of water, and I watched intently as he chugged it down loudly, with a gasp for breath on the end. I leant against the counter and fiddled with an envelope in today's mail, feeling a little awkward. What do I do now? He hit me again this morning. I can't be angry with him, because it'll only make him retaliate again. I have to understand, and give him plenty of attention and love - like a puppy. He handed me a cold wet cloth. "What's this for?" I asked. "Your cheek" he told me, and began to walk over. "It doesn't hurt anymore" I lied with a gentle smile. "It's bright red" he said, seeing straight through my masquerade. Why am I such a terrible liar? He always knows when I'm telling him a load of bull. Sometimes, that's definitely not a good thing... "So?" I protested, still acting as if I didn't see the problem. It was on fire. Really, really stinging. I didn't need him feeling any worse than he already did, I saw it in his mind during the soul Resonation. He was an inch away from being severely depressed. "There's a hand print Ammi" he sighed, clearly having won. I frowned, and pulled a pocket-sized mirror from my messenger bag on the counter top. Clear as day, on my left cheek, was a red and white blotchy outline of Kai's hand - that's how hard he had hit me. Looking at it made me want to be sick. My stomach was churning. I put the mirror down and let Kai take the cloth from me. He brushed my hair back and placed the icy cold cloth gently over my cheek. It was sort of nice. It took away the worst of the pain, and replaced it with more of a numbing, soothing feeling. I let my eyes slowly slide closed, the exhaustion of Soul Resonating four times catching up with me. My knees were going weak again. At least my leg didn't hurt as much as my cheek. I felt Kai get closer until his lips were nuzzling my cheek, his breath creeping over my jaw and ear. "You know I'm sorry, yeah?" he whispered into my skin, the feeling of his lips brushing over my skin a relaxing one. His words didn't give me the same comfort. They frightened me. Was he sorry? I didn't even know. If he was sorry, then what did he have to hide from me. What was in the darker side of his mind, the part he didn't let me see. I wanted to know. No more lies. But I guess, being with Kai, lying goes both ways. You lie, you get lied to. You get lied to, you lie back. It's a continuous circle, it never ends. "Yeah I know". Lying. Again.
Whoa. Confusing huh. At least they finally resonated their souls!! First time everrr!!! Kai seems a little reluctant though... Hmm... Wonder what else he could be hiding... ;) I love how only I know ;) Hahaa Love, Drew xxx
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