30 October 2012
At the moment I feel so alone. I move between two houses because my parents are divorce. At both homes all I do is sit in my room alone. My sister who doesn't go to my dads, I never see because has a new boyfriend, I can barely call her a sister. I'm in the middle of GCSE's and I don't want any help. My dad thinks I need counselling. I get angry easily and frustrated and come across really aggressive but honestly that's how I cope with things that annoy me. I don't try to explain my opinion. I just blurt everything out and it comes out not like I intended. I have some 'friends' if that's what they are. They decided when they want me and when they don't. I have about 3 true friends. But I feel like such an outsider, someone who hasn't done stuff with boys when the rest do. So to hide away my loneliness and sadness. And the way I'm so lost in everything. I sit in my room and watch tv programmes and films and become obsessed with some many things. And basically indulge myself in anything that'll make me forget, how alone I really am.
I Feel So Alone • Opuss № I