5 December 2012
My innocent, carefree mind crumbles away unrelated to the fact I watch my dog sleep soundly in her basked beside the kitchen table in front of the radiator.
I pick up words here and there, that my Dad repeats loudly to try to get across to the people he works with on Skype, even though its not the volume but the connexion that is causing the problems and shouting doesn't solve anything,but he still persists. I do realise that none of my physical body feels heavy but my mind ways down and mutates from a child like mindset to a mind held down by the rush and torment of revoking all resistance to the war of persistence of a controlling family.
Oh how I hate the way they use my energy and respect I initially gave them whilst I was younger and much more naive. It was in happier times Ill give them that but theres no doubt I was used for my ability to gain a steady amount of money for the small jobs I used to do.
When they used to take the change from my money box I thought nothing of it but a year later when I wanted to access my school fund for a trip an found there was nothing there... You sort of suspect something is up.
Of course its all payed back ten fold but the fact that they did that still leads me to suspect and unfortunately thinking of this takes away my kid like attitude that my friends know me so well for...
I hate wen that happens...
Sorry about that.. Just needed a rant...
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