10 June 2012
I felt cold hand on my wrist, it pulled my back. I almost felt on the ground. Suddenly someone sucked up to my lips. It was Mark. It was so sick, I wanted to throw up. What the hell he was doing, he was even more disgusting to me. - What the hell Ur doing?!- I jumped backwards.- Get off me! - Dolly, I just want to give you proper good bye. Soon you will be mine, get use to it.- He said that with that disgusting smile on his face.
I slapped him. Tears were going to show up, so I just close my eyes for a second. I need to get out of here, I said for myself, so I started running. Nobody knew were and from who.
After three hours I was finally at home, I felt awful, you know the feel when your feeling dirty inside? That was exactly how I felted, I rushed to the shower. I felt and looked terrifying. I turned the water on, it was running until the bath was filled. I stood in front of mirror, looking in to blurry image I saw through the tears. In the bath I was trying to scuff all the dirt I felt on me. I was rubbing my skin until it was red. I went out of the bath not so sad, but still in pretty bad mood. Well, how can I be in better mood, my mother promised me as part of the deal. Amazing!
I went to the kitchen and made cacao. I'm not childish, today I just need some. Took the hot cup with me, and sat on the window sill. My cat immediately came, she said hello in her cat language, and started gulp. I hugged her, it was nice to feel someone who loves you to, next to you. My dad passed away last year, so basically I have just cat left. My mother just don't know what it is, love. To love someone, and don't wait for anything in return. I loved her anyway, well she is my mother. I felt so exhausted, and my cacao was over, so I turned the lights off, and went to bed. Closed my eyes...
*hope you will like this part. I'm missing for comments. :( good night E.~
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