lost ~ part two.
They're constantly asking me what's wrong, why I'm so distant, why I'm not as perfect as the other kids at my school.
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They're constantly asking me what's wrong, why I'm so distant, why I'm not as perfect as the other kids at my school.
When I was 4 my parents divorced. I went through counseling, therapy, anger management classes, anything and everything I've been through. The first time I went back was last year for my brother.
If I was going to tell you a secret, would you tell not a soul. No matter how twisted, would you help me feel less distanced. Would you judge me but take my side.
I want to write like there's no tomorrow. My fingers cramp at the thought of all the memories. Not sure if I'm ready to share those. They longer in the depths of who I once was. I miss her. The old...
She opened up her mind, but nothing came out; It was empty. All of a sudden her brain went blank. All she could see was a vast rolling path, going no where.
Why is it so cold out tonight. The winds tearing at my whispery grey beard, again. I shift body weight to keep my chin away from the bitterness of night.
It seems like I am never going to be okay. I have finally come to the terms that it is from the path I have gone astray.
I need a break. When everything becomes too much to able on you're on edge: just waiting for that one word, one action to push you over… but it doesn't.
I just wanted to thank everyone who has followed, liked and commented on my stuff so far. It means just so much to me. I've got the confidence of an earthworm so it's an incredible boost.
What are you doing?. Put it down. Hey!. Listen to me. I walk up to them and stumble into a pane of glass. I bang at it ferociously, trying to get their attention. Fuck. They still can't hear me.
This ones for the broken, this ones for the weak, giving them the faith, with the help they seek. Giving up may be an option, but what would that mean.
I was a girl, rushing through hallways, opening doors. Doors to rooms I'd never seen before, or at least I felt like I didn't recognise them. Rushing and spinning and feeling lost, anxious, alone.
Today I attended a dementia training day (I look after people suffering from mental illness during the night) and I have to admit, I am a tad freaked out by some of the early signs...
Me. a "popular"?. hah!!. no!!. i just have people that care about me thats all. Me. a "crybaby"?. no!!. im just bipolar, a teenage girl on PUBERTY, and deal with shit. Me. a "teachers pet"?. please!!.
8th grade. Supposed to be the most memorable year of my life so far. And it is. But not for good reasons. It all started when my parents legalized their divorce.
Try to fix things. Make them worse. Try to apologise, make it a mess. Try to explain my predicament, try to enlighten them. Make it complicated.
(Please read the beginning to understand the story.) As mum tried to figure out in what to do next, she decided to ask help from our Social worker Sarah. What a big mistake that was.
I wish sometimes that someone would just give me the answer to the question pounding at the back of my skull. At this point, I feel like life has no purpose.
Is this the part where I try to tell a funny joke to break the ice. I proceed by telling you all about my childhood and how much I hated life. Or should I tell you about all the times I felt alone.
While everyone else is sleeping, I lie awake. I think about the past and the future. The present is dark and depressing, more so than the past. A broken heart, a lost love.
First year Arts has come to an end, and I have found within me that I have rushed in to college too fast.
I'm back for good. I was going through a rough time and I'm past it. I'm done with all of that stuff. I've learned that everything you do follows you. Some of you will always see me as you did.
It's all getting so damn boring. I'm always frowning, night to morning. What's there left to do in this town. There's nothing here but gossip spread around. I've done it all. I felt so tall.
I'm riddled with anxiety tonight. I've suffered from panic attacks since I was fourteen, and Agoraphobia for a few years, but tonight feels uniquely frightening.