2 August 2012
Coming from nowhere. A feeling of doom washes over me. What I see in front of me shifts. I can no longer make sense of the world around me.
I lose all control. Can't sit still. Stuck in some paralysis where people blur out. Where I just want to get far far away. Leave everything behind for a minute. One-on-one with my emotions.
I can't. I'm unable to think, so consumed by confusion and hopelessness. Self-doubt hits me like a hammer over the head. I don't want, need or do anything.
Someone flicks the panic switch. Heart pounds, palms sweat. Breaths become shallow. Head spins. I can't sit still. I must flee. Must deal with this alone. Just me and the anxiety.
I walk back and forth, trying to focus on breathing. Outer body experience. Almost faints. Every sound around me is a danger. Every movement sparks a new feeling of fear. I can't shake the feeling.
Why...
Panic Strikes • Opuss № I