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Let me disappear, let me go far away. Somewhere I can't be found again. I'm invisible, you see straight through me. Everything has been pushed away. I can't feel anything, I can't be left like this.
I don't know what to do. I'm trapped in something which I can't undo. I'm stuck inside my own mind. Torturing myself time after time. I guess I deserve it after I lied.
I'm trying, I'm praying but no one hears my screaming. I'm trapped inside this world, and no one understands it. It's all so dark and it's all so quiet.
It's time to let go. Of everything I have ever known. It's time for me to move on. I need to learn to be strong. Watch me as I crumble, watch me as I fall. I need to try and rise above it all.
Oh I'm a big dreamer. Reality is too far away. I'm lost in my own little world. I've lost grip of it all. I live in a place away from here. But nobody else can enter, it's only me who lives there.
There's nothing else to say, Everyone has walked away, Nobody will listen anymore, I'm just an attention seeking bore.
I can't stop crying, but I guess it's my fault for lying. I sit here at night, letting my thoughts take over me, not being able to find the light.
Nobody can save me, you can all try. But you won't make me better by filling me up with lies. I'm lost, but I can't be found. It's too late, all hope has been lost. I'm useless and broken anyway.
You'll try and make me happy, say that it will all be okay. But it won't be, not for much longer anyway. No one likes me anymore, I'm only there for advice.
I'm sorry to say, but I'm leaving for another 7 days. I may have wifi but I can't promise it. Hopefully all the scenery will help me. It's so beautiful in Brittany.
I think my time is done here, I'm out of inspiration. I think it's time for me to leave opuss for good. So I'm asking now, how do I delete it?.
I wish that everyone could feel happy, that none of us had pain. I wish I could stop everyone from feeling like their insane. I wish I could take the numbness away.
Laugh And live Unite us Go on, carry on Happy, together..
Don't tell me what I'm thinking, you don't know everything. Don't tell me what to do, when it's nothing to do with you. You're so cold and harsh towards me, yet you're supposed to be helping?.
I have many suspicions, many things to avoid. Such as putting umbrellas up indoors. I have to dodge the cracks on the pavement, to avoid any more bad luck.
Days feel so long. Everything seems to be going wrong. Sitting here alone, not wanting anyone near me. I can't deal with what I see. I hate myself, I hate this world we live in.
Energy around me around me building. Something lingers out there. Spirits rise, a presence stays. Beyond this world is a place which we cannot see.
The butterflies are firing up again. My heart racing at the mention of your name. Your smile lights up the room, like it's only us two. My eyes only light up if your with me.
I always want to change my hair, I can never be pleased. First I want brown, then I want purple, oh and red dip dye too. Should I have my hair curly, wavy or straight. I ask in delight.
My self esteem is very low. I go through everyday thinking it's all my fault. I don't deserve happiness or anyone to love. I know that I will never be good enough.
Lying lifeless, on the ground by myself. No one's here now, they've let me go. I've slipped away from the world and no one can save me. The world I live in now is empty, I live in eternal darkness.
Hidden away, behind my make-up, behind my smile. You think I'm perfect, you tell me all the time. There is nothing perfect about the person I see. A small, fragile girl, hiding.
His eyes are lit up like flames. His glare burns my eyes, he laughs at my suffering. He is pleasured by the pain I'm in. He watches me scream and sob as he takes me away. Torturing me for my mistakes.
Hello, welcome. Please come and join us, Join us lost souls, let's all live as one. We'll live in the land of the dead. Together we'll be united. Take your own path, are you good or are you bad.
It's so peaceful under water. Nothing can harm or touch you. You are free at last, you can forget all your troubles. It's calm, you finally feel relaxed.
My sweet little butterfly, won't you please fly away. Don't bother to stay. Please be free now, let your fragile wings grow. Carry on flying, don't look back on me.
Her room smells stale, cold, damp. The walls close slowly in on her, there's no way for her to get out. The floor boards creak to her every movement. Someone follows behind her, shadows along the...
Going insane Emotional Over dramatic Ridiculous Gigantic Insecure Abandoned Hi I'm Georgia, nice to meet you..
Welcome to this lonely world. Once you're here there's no turning back. You're trapped here for eternity. Even when your body dies, your soul still lives. There's no exit, your stuck here forever.
(I have a bit of an obsession with vampires:3) My name is Valentina. My skin so cold and pale. The sunlight kills me, night time is when I shine. I follow behind you, you can't even see...
My adrenalin took over. I had no clue where I was. I started running to get away. Filled with frustration and anger I can't control myself. I carried on running, nothing could stop me now.
My best friend has been with me ever since we were born. We even grew inside the same womb. We were born an hour apart. I love her with all my heart. We played together, she was my only company.
I used to be an angel. Not one bad thought, kind and pure. I treated people well, guided them. I used to help, be useful. Now I've fallen, turned to darkness and I'm trapped.
Nothing is worse than knowing no one trusts me. They don't understand, they don't even care what they see. They look at me like I'm a blank canvas, one which needs to be painted.
1. I was born on St Patricks day. 2. I have rode a camel. 3. My favourite band is Evanescence. 4. I have Trichotillamania, Anxiety and Depression. 5. I have a phobia of escalators. 6. I hate feet.
I love your hair. I love your eyes. I love your smile. I love your laugh. I love your random moods. I love your flaws. I love your taste in music. I love your fashion sense. I love your weirdness.
Dear future me... Look, I know things are pretty tough. I know you feel rough. Just remember everything you've ever been through. It's been hard for everyone as well as you.
Music blasts in my ears. Everything else has been silenced. It numbs the pain, traps me in my own whirlwind of thought. I can't hear all the spiteful names I'm being called.
Another song of mine, I love writing songs, it makes me feel so much better. Don't worry darling you're not insane, don't worry about me, it will all be okay.
Don't be afraid, let me in. I'm trying to see you, but you can't see me. I'm not going to hurt you, I want to see if you miss me.
Let the flames in twine. Let all the sparks fly. Glazing, flashing ever so bright. Watch it dance, watch it blaze. Listen to the sound of crackling and the whistle of the wind.
Don't say you love me, when I can see you're lying. Don't say I'm your one and only when I know you still love her too. Don't say it's normal for her to keep flirting with you.
I want to see what I look like through other peoples eyes. I want to see if they can see what lies beneath. I want to see if they can see what I'm hiding.
It took my breath away by how cold it was, all my body was numb, frozen. I kept on swimming, waves breaking over the top of me, trapping me under water. I was finally free, I had finally been saved.
I stare down at the deep shades of blue. The water looks icy and deadly. I crouch down closer feeling the spray of the waves burning my face. The wind so harsh and vicious.
A figure stares back mockingly. She looks lost, eyes all watery. I don't recognise who is looking back at me. She looks broken, unsure of what's going on.
Life is a picture, I can add more and more to cover it but once I've drawn it, I can't erase or change it. I have to keep all the mistakes visible, I can't hide them.
I don't know if I can be happy again. I don't think I'd be able to handle it. I'd rather stay unhappy, feel alone, I've become so used to it now, I'm better off on my own.
Don't come crying to me, when everything turns wrong. I'm not the second option, you left me. You left me for somebody else, but now you're back.
Yes, I'm fine, Smiling all the time. Everything's great, Living life until it's too late. I'm a little crazy and a little mad, There's nothing bad about that. I'm perfectly safe It's all okay.
I deserve to suffer, I don't want to get better. I want all the pain to build up, I want to carry on like this. This may sound strange but it's what I always deserved.
We all experience pain, whether it's physically or mentally. It doesn't matter whose situation was worse or how bad it was, all that really matters is the way that you react to it.
The waves lap softly over my arms and legs, pulling me away, everything disappearing. Lost in a world entirely of my own.
Salty tears run down my face, my eyes burning, vision blurred. A lump in my throat, choked by words. No words can escape, I quietly whimper under my breath, I don't want anyone to witness the pain.
You can't fix me if I'm not broken. Everything has already been taken. You need to let me be I can't stay here so unhappy. I need to be left alone. Where I can be set free to roam.
I'm sorry for the lack of writing recently. I've been told by my doctor to stop for a bit because I may become too dependent. I will be writing again soon I hope. I hope you understand.
Am I the new hot topic. The new joke everyone is talking about, I'm just a fool and no one will help. Instead they trick me, making me see myself as something I'm not.
You're bored and tired of living, you're scared of dying. So where do you go. In a world in between... you are alive, still living but you feel empty and dead on the inside, like a broken shell.
I'm an open book, way too easy to read, just look into my eyes, they reveal my story. Nothing can be hidden away in my mind, everything roams free. Every little secret runs wild, so everyone can see.
If you were a flower I'd pick you,. If this was a battle I'd fight for you,. If you were a mountain I'd climb you,. If you were broken, I'd fix you,. If you were dying, I'd die too,.
The sound of the rain is soothing, makes everything feel calmer, I can feel it's force pushing against my window, a soft rhythm drumming against the glass.
Watching the clouds fly by, sitting here alone, looking at the rain falling outside my window. Hearing the whistling of the wind. Wondering what it's like to feel happy again.
Smile Make believe It makes you stronger Laugh everyday Enjoy the good days while they last..
Surrounded by darkness, you can't see the light, every day so tiring and dull and every night. Everything seems to fade, until finally there's nothing left.
Sometimes I hate night time. Last night something horrible kept happening. When I closed my eyes I'd picture something frightening.
Maybe, things just aren't what they seem, there's more than what meets the eye, but you're oblivious. You only see the hard surface, you only see the mask.
I know I'm not the first one that is on your mind when you wake up. I know you don't care for me like you used to. I know I'm nothing to you now, I'm invisible.
Hi I'm Georgia and... I'm a little bit mad sometimes, people say I'm crazy. I'm very shy, but try to be confident around my friends.
Apparently you love two people at once, now I know that can't be true. You can love one person only, the one that makes you complete.
Here is my jar of emotions... It's only very small, so when it's overloaded, everything starts to fall. I try to keep them bottled up until it breaks, overflowing emotions start to overtake.
Don't worry, I'll try to keep on smiling. As much as life may hurt me, I'll carry on trying. I hCan you save me. Can you save me from the nothing I've become, come and find me, I need you here.
I'm shy, but I'm confident I'm unhappy, but I'm happy I'm alone, then I'm over crowded I'm wrong, I'm right I'm worthless, I'm worthy I'm down, I'm up....
I don't see why it's so wrong to be different. Nobody's perfect are they. We should be able to be who we want, not how people want us to be. We weren't born to be the same.
This is my second song, it's completely original:) Can you save me. Can you save me from the nothing I've become, come and find me, I need you here.
I sat on my bed, picked up the note. I struggled to read the hand writing. It said "Dear Alisha...
I've given up. I'm fed up of trying, I'm fed up of crying. I'm sick of the mind twisting games you play, all those sickening lies.
I'm sorry that my best will never be good enough for you. I'm sorry that I get in the way, I know you don't want me there. I'm sorry I cause so much trouble, I'll stay out of the way.
I live in a world where I'm separate from every one else. Like I'm not really there. Like somebody could reach out there fingers and they would go straight through me.
I'm not invisible. I still exist. Yet you act as though you don't recognise me. It's your fault I'm suffering, but you don't seem to care. I'm lonely in a crowd of people.
I ran home as quickly as I could. I didn't understand what was happening. Were those people real. I had no idea what they wanted me for.
Smile. Yes it can be hard. Even though you do not know me, we are all part of one community. I want you to know that I'm here for you, and I will help you with everything you've been through.
I ran out of the house, trying to get away from it. I couldn't talk to anyone. I knew nobody could save me. I felt I was going insane.
I've been pushed aside. I am no longer my old self. I've been replaced by a new me, one which not many people like. I look in the mirror and I don't recognise myself, I see a dark, evil person.
We hide behind fake smiles. Hoping we can fool everyone. But it isn't always that easy, sometimes the cracks start to show, the smile becomes broken.
Your eyes are glowing red, burning like fire, I can see down deep into your soul, I can see what you desire, you hate yourself so much, you can't face another day, I want to be the one that saves...
Plucking one by one they fall to the ground. Quickly looking to see if anybody saw me. Each hair falling gently onto the floor. All the pain and worry escapes me, it all falls out so easily.
So you think you can leave me, grind me down deeper and deeper into the ground, break everything we ever had and then expect for it all to be ok with just saying sorry?.
You can't judge somebody until you step into their shoes and see the world through their eyes..
This world we live in is too judgemental. I can't listen to the music I like, because I'm called goth or emo. I can't dress the way I like because it's different.
It's hard to express yourself in a world like this. You feel like nobody will understand how you truly feel, like you will get judged for everything you do.
I am no longer in control of my brain. It runs on auto-pilot but I should be the driver. My brain now controls me and makes me do things I wouldn't normally do.
I lay in the dark, in the corner of my room. No one could hear me, screaming and crying in pain. I am invisible, non existent. I was left to handle the world of hate by myself. I walked alone.
The best thing about dreams is that you can escape to your own world where everything feels real and you can become anything you want to be..