13 May 2012
You know sometimes when they say you need to make some changes in life to allow good changes? Well something along that line at least. I thought I made a rather prominent change last year. And honestly, though I have got no regrets, I am yet to be completely happy. If anything, I begin to doubt my own security blanket now which has always been my studies. Problems come and go, but my books and my thrive to do well in academics had never been a question, well until couple months back. I joined this post graduate programme to widen my horizon, explore my options. But I am guessing it is not the case anymore. Maybe my ambitions in life have changed. Maybe I have been blindsided all these while. But what am I suppose to do? Should I be thankful that my problems are in focus now? Or should I panic that I have no clue about my next step? I am inclining to the latter if anything :( There is nothing more frustrating than investing all my will and power to give my best , my all into something I am not very sure I want. I want to believe that I am a good person, and I do believe good things will happen to good people. But as a Muslim, I know nothing will come easily if you're just on your bum. By God's will I really hope I will figure out what I really want to achieve in life, down to the specifics- answering all the 'how','what' and 'when' questions rather than a standard commentary 'I want to be successful'. When this happens, I know I wont even let myself stand in my own way. I guess it helps to at least know what I don't want in my life- that is to be dependant on others to get by. Hell. No.
Priorities Changed, Then? • Opuss № I