7 April 2012
Sometimes you forgive people simply because you still want them in your life.
2 years ago at the start of college I made this really great friend. We had so much in common and we had similar future aspirations. We loved each others company. One thing she didn't like was mobile phones (she didn't have one) and I respected that. So we contacted each other through emails. Hundreds of emails. That year I probably exchanged about 200-300 with her. We both told each other everything from then on. All the things girls love to gossip about.
Sep 2011. We got back to college. By this time we'd already had our grades from AS exams. She suddenly seemed to be a changed person. I think once you get really close to someone you see so many flaws within them, some of which I happened to really dislike. She had a best mate from high school who she constantly used to drag around. Like a dog. There is no better explanation. She lied about nearly everything she told me as well. Betrayed. Lied to.
Suddenly everything she seemed to do all seemed fake. Her laugh. Her jokes. I didn't reply to her next email. I didn't get on the same bus as her. And I couldn't stand to look at her. We didn't speak. For about 5 months.
Then I happened to tell my other friend who I'm close to everything that had happened. And that day, I just decided to forgive her. Maybe for the reason above. We said our apologies and got back to our lives again.
I have kept my distance from her. We are friends. I'm someone who doesn't like change. Whether it be in a person, place, object. It's a bad thing for me. But I'm getting there.
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