10 July 2012
Sara: It's been months ever since I stopped going to school. I miss him so bad. I wonder what does he think about me. Will he miss me? Or does he even notice I'm not at school for six months? I don't know...
I kept on wondering why can't I go to school. Why must the operation be so complicated. I miss wandering around the school. Having fun with my friends,classmates, joking around with the teachers and meeting Alex... I really wanted to talk to him.. This is so complicated. Even my operation is complicated. I guess my life will be forever complicated. Maybe I'm being too sarcastic. Or dramatic. Or probably emotional. It's hard for me to keep on faking smiles as if I'm so happy with life. I still remembers after the bell rings my eyes will quickly look at you. And then it won't stop looking. You're so wondrous yet you always look as if you're so lonely... I hated when you did that. Why? I always asked myself, why do you seem so lonely?
I'm not sure when will this hospital living ends. I want to go away from here. I hate this place. There's not much freedom here. I wished thatAlex might came and see me or visit me. I would loved that... Would he do that? I hoped so...
{to be continued... Wait for more! It's Lily's feeling next!}
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