10 April 2012
It's sad to realize that a three year friendship has come to an end. All you can do is hope that they will come back for you. But you have to realize that it's over. I've lost several friends over the years, but there was no one like him. I cried for days after he started ignoring me. I couldn't eat, sleep, or even talk to people because of the giant gaping hole in my heart. It's even worse when you realize that you loved him. And there's no more texting till dawn. No more long walks down to the river. No more hiding away in our secret place talking and sharing secrets. No more late night fires where you can smell The thick gray smoke from a mile away. No more laughs making fun of all the worst teachers. No more crazy games of truth or dare where I always make you shove ice down your pants. No more smiles, no more hugs, no more goodbyes or laughs. No more emotion. No more love. We've both grown up, and I'm having a hard time taking that in. It's gonna be real hard for me to have to stay with you all day tomorrow. But I'll try. I just hope you realize that I still can't breathe when I'm around you. My body freezes up and I can't move. I still get butterflies in my stomach when i get closer to you. I don't like you anymore, but you still take my breath away. I'll miss you.
Lost Friendship • Opuss № I