18 July 2012

We talked around the edges

For hours

Until you said

You had to go

Should have long ago

To meet someone, do something

Drink, get wrecked

Easier than talking, talking

Saying it can't work

Won't work

Can't try

Won't try

Better to run and say goodbye

Better for who?

Not for me, nor you

I get it

She broke you

And your parents before that

Refused proposal of marriage

And messy divorce

Made you sceptical

Afraid of loving

Like you have before

Laying it all out

Showing you full hand

Just to be destroyed

It won't happen

I won't be that person

But you won't let me

Show you

Prove it

So we talk, talk, talk

As I try to find the truth

In the bravado, cover-story, excuses, lies

I know you feel

Something

Maybe not love

Strong and wild like mine

But something

Worth effort

Worth the fight

We talk until there are no words left

No more reasoning

Begging

Pleading

Reassuring

Questioning

I can do

You are going

And I can't go with you

But I'll wait here

My life like

Stop-frame animation

Until you come back

Will you miss me?

Kiss me?

Honestly?

I don't know

But I'll be here

Hanging on to memories

And hope

And while you are away

I'll write, write, write

Instead of talking.

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