13 December 2011
When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. I behave like a child.
When I became a man, I put my childish ways behind me. And let my self be drove by the desires of the heart, I thirsted for passion and hunger for your flesh to be close to me.
Now I see the reflexion of the person I have become in the mirror and I cant help but wish I was that child again.
My heart aches with pain since the moment I fell for you, The silence I must keep destroys my childhood fantasies of a happy ending.
The curse of adulthood is to discover love and suffer for it, To desire her body and never be able to hold it.
I look at the mirror and see and feel how painful loneliness is. To know that the price of love is too high to pay.
I struggle against my own heart for it reason. To forget, to heal and move on from it's endless quest.
Now I look trough the looking glass trap in a nightmarish endless chess game out of Carroll's mind.
Becoming madder than the hatter with live itself been a unsolveble riddle a maze on which there's no exit but end.
I'm the white queen pawn in a red queen game. Lookin for away to escape this madness. I just want to be that child again.
When I Was A Child • Opuss № I