12 April 2012
And yet as I was feeling it, as my blood flowed fast and my brain worked overtime I felt sad, sad because I have felt like this before, I have felt euphorically happy in the past; when I was in love for the first time, when I read a really good book, when I felt proud of you.
Are most people like this? Do they need drugs to feel this happy? Strong emotions of love seem to only come at certain points in your life, when you are a teenager and an imbalance of hormones causes you to fall deeply inlove, if only for a second, it is the best feeling. This moment brigs me back to night as I was going home, my mind raising with the promise of an upcoming kiss. As my mind's eye retraced the evening events; there, resting on the ground wasI rose, a lonely white rose discarded on the street,blowing on the wind, I picked it up, it became the symbol of my love for that girl, the symbol of the promise I held in my mind and heart by which, my delusion began and she became a perfect woman, too far away from the imperfection of beauty to be true.
Thoughts Whilst On MDMA For The First Time • Opuss № I