From this moment

Up till this very moment my life was exactly what I didn't want. It was chaotic, crazy, boring and at times not even mine. My decisions were based solely on what others thought, what I thought everyone wanted me to do or say. I never realized until this very moment that giving myself for anybody's approval is more than wrong, it's degrading.
At this very moment my life is going to change. My life will still be chaotic, crazy and boring but it will always be mine. My decisions will be based on what I want. I will suffer the consequences alone, they will be my cross to bare. I may not be perfect in everyone's eyes, but it's what i see that matters the most. There will always be someone prettier, skinnier and richer than me, but i promise there will never be another me.
From this moment forward, I will no longer be pushed around and forced to agree with someone else's point of view for the sake of argument. From now on my opinion is all that matters to me. I've given so much to everyone I seem to have lost myself, I lost who I was, my identity was gone. I wanted what nobody wanted, approval based on biased choices. I promise with all my heart that im taking this as my final chance to finally have exactly what I want, my life back and my identity to actually call my own!