Just a small town guy trapped in my crazy mind.
Rising in the blackened sky. A beacon climbs high. Shining light on the darkest of places. Watching over the sleeping faces. Comforting though it seems. Gone it will be by the end of dreams..
I've been feeling down all week and I couldn't think why, until today. Today is when I looked at the calendar and saw tomorrow.
I'm watching Air Force One. It's a film so it's probably exaggerated a little I don't know but it amazes me how much security there is for one person.
This time of year is the time I like the most. When the days start to get darker. When the mornings are frosty and dark. When the leaves fall. When the rain pours for days on end.
A second A minute An hour A day A week A month A year A decade A century A millennia Time - Established since the beginning of time..
I have an open mind. I accept people for who they are.
Wandering this world in search of a purpose. Lost souls scream in this earthly circus. Searching for someone or something to make life worth living. No direction and full of misgivings.
"Nothing exists except atoms and empty space; everything else is opinion" - Democritus.
Since January when she left, I've done some damage to myself and my life.
Finally got myself a job interview tomorrow. Anyone got any tips?.
Sitting in the garden star gazing. It's strange to think that all those tiny twinkling dots that cover the night sky are giant balls of gas, billions of miles away.
As a child the boy had friends, a lot of friends. Friends he had known since pre school. Then high school graduation came. The boy left with very few grades and even fewer friends.
There's no monster under my bed. Just a box of memories that lurk instead. Memories of her. Of a happier time. No one's memories but mine. They wait for me to venture under.
It's my first funeral today. I've never been to one, the only reason I even know what happens is because of the ones I've seen on tv. It's going to be strange, like stepping in to the unknown.
I need stop wasting my days. I don't know how long I'm going to be here for after all, no one does.
Everyday each one of us is fighting a battle, Somedays more than one. We fight for freedom. We fight for jobs. We fight for money. We fight for happiness. We fight for peace.
Did you hear about that guy that got fired from the Pepsi factory today. He tested positive for coke.
I am the guy you don't even notice. I am the guy you look straight passed. I am the guy that holds the door. I am the guy who gives you a smile. I am the guy who offers help. I am the invisible man..
Demons run when a good man goes to war. Night will fall and drown in sun. When a good man goes to war. Friendship dies and true love lies. Night will fall and the dark will rise.
Do not stand at my grave and weep, I am not there; I do not sleep. I am a thousand winds that blow, I am the diamond glints on snow, I am the sun on ripened grain, I am the gentle autumn rain.
I never saw you much and now it's too late because your gone. Your up in the stars now. We weren't close but I'll miss you. RIP Grandad..
When's the actually point in life when you feel like an adult. Because I don't feel like one and I'm 22.
I know some people say life's what you make it and I agree but it's not easy. It looked easy when we were kids. We saw the adults go to work, come home, get paid, spend money, do whatever they wanted.
Sometimes I wish I was born into an amazon tribe or I could be a Tibetan monk. I want a simple life cut off from the 21st century.
She's been there everyday of my life. We've never argued or fought. If I ever need help she is the first to offer it whatever the problem is.
At this point in my life I could be surrounded by a million people and still feel like the loneliest person in the world. My Dad has moved away, my brother has moved away.
I need to get a grip today. I saw that girl, but I couldn't talk to her because I just kept thinking about my ex.
I feel weird tonight like a rabbit caught in the headlights. Thoughts are racing through my head like a pride of lions races after its prey. I haven't felt like this for a while.
So the day has arrived. The day where I plan to talk to the girl I like.
I met this girl on Friday, she is beautiful. I didn't manage to get her name, but there was something about her that made her stick in my head.
How many letters are in the alphabet. 24 because E.T went home..
Somewhere along this rocky road we call life, I've lost every single ounce of confidence I ever had. Every anxiety I ever had has come back for the bloody anxiety reunion of the year and I'm the...
He is such a strange strange boy,a quiet one. I've not met anyone else like it. So reserved you barely even notice he's there.
I sit and listen to everyone's troubles, giving them my opinion like some kind of therapist. They come and I listen, that's how it's always been ever since I was a kid.
Walking round looking like I've lost a pound and found a penny. People are just really getting me to me today, I know I shouldn't let them but they just are..
For miles I walked that day, I walked and walked, not even stopping to take in my surroundings. The sky was grey, the air, filled with a wiff of despair.
"Those who lose dreaming are lost" - Australian Aboriginal saying.
The morning after the night before.We drink till we're drunk, we try to score.The sun comes up and hurts our thumping heads. The rest of day is spent sleeping in bed. Never again we say to each other.
I know we're not close, but I still feel sad, you're dying. Throat cancer and I feel like I should of made more of an effort to see you but if I do it now I'll look like an hypocrite won't I.
I'm like a tortoise, slowly I get coaxed out of my shell and for a while I enjoy myself, then something happens and I shoot back in to my shell.
I really need to sort myself out. I'm not living, I just exist and it's boring. I need friends and I need to go out and do new things like I used to. Otherwise what is the point in my life..
Brick by brick. Up it goes. The wall I'm building. To keep out my foes. You won't get me. You wont even get near. The wall I'm building. To keep out my fear. You won't get over. So don't even try-er.
No guts, no glory..
I needed somewhere to clear my head, and Opuss is that place. She kinda told me last night it wouldn't work but she still doesn't know. I'm just going to get on with life and not let it get to me..
I won't be on here for a few days now. I'm sorting myself out, my tumblr is logged out and in a second my phone is going off. I need no distractions.
The pen is our sword and the paper our shield. We write the stuff, we dream, we feel. Some stories good, some stories bad.
A woman goes to the doctors with a lettuce leaf sticking out the top of her pants. The doctor says "ooh that looks nasty" The woman replies "it's just the tip of the iceberg".
There's a war in my head between good and bad Do it. Don't. You'll regret it lad They fire their missile's towards each other. Over no-mans land they go. BANG, BANG.
(You lot are probably sick of hearing it now but writing on here helps get it out of my head a little.) I can't eat, I can't sleep, I can't concentrate on anything, it's just her constantly.
There's not even a word to describe how much I love you. Even after all this time, I still do. I'd actually do anything in the world for you..
Nothing worth having comes easy..
60 years ago Queen Elizabeth II became Queen at the age of just 25. I don't know what anyone else thinks about the Queen but me personally, I think she's cool.
Why are you so complicated. If I text too much it annoys her, if I don't text enough she thinks I don't care. It's hard to get the inbetween, it's like I'm doing chemistry at school all over again.
Reading usually helps me escape my thoughts but tonight it doesn't seem to be working. I can't stop thinking about her, literally. I can't concentrate on anything else.
Not quite dead but barely alive. We breathe, We dream Till morning arrives..
Carpe Diem, is my motto for today..
The great black pit I wrote about a few weeks ago. I can see myself falling back into it..
Just because you can't imagine me doing something, doesn't mean I can't..
sometimes your best just isn't good enough?.
Giving up feels like the best option, but then I think of all the people that doubt me and that spurs me on. I'm not giving up I won't give them the satisfaction, I'll prove them all wrong.
Being a good person gets you nowhere..
(I love this poem). A thousand fair suitors all stab at your heart. Those poets of movement and jockeys of art. The high-volume vendors who hustle romance. Splashing their canvas with color and dance.
You're going to need more than just a map and compass to navigate your way through my mind, even I get lost in the wilderness..
These feelings are very strange indeed. I love you, yes, but it's all so different to the first time, why is it so awkward now.
[on] feelings [[off]].
One of the most depressingly heavy things people carry around with them.
That feeling where someone you care about so much is in trouble and you know there's nothing much you can do to help.
It's amazing how it just takes a day for your mood to go from good to bad. I thought I'd look at photos of when I was kid to cheer myself up.
Can't stop smiling..
Every single time I think I'm getting somewhere someone comes along with a wrecking ball, and wipes everything out..
My head is strong but my heart is weak..
I often talk aloud to myself. I find it extraordinarily useful. - Albus Dumbledore.
By Aflred Lord Tennyson Half a league half a league, Half a league onward, All in the valley of Death Rode the six hundred: 'Forward, the Light Brigade.
By Winifred Mary Letts There was a man, - don't mind his name, Whom Fear had dogged by night and day. He could not face the German guns And so he turned and ran away.
Sometimes the best thing you can do, is nothing at all..
We were more like animals, like we were when we lived in caves and had to hunt for our survival.
I wish I had some..
The need to find another human being to share one's life with has always puzzled me. Maybe because I am so interesting all by myself.
The people are nice at this time of morning..
I think to much and say to little..
I always, always put everyone elses feelings before my own, sometimes I wonder why I bother, because being nice gets you no where..
Got myself a job as a lift attendant... It has it's ups and downs.
If you're going through hell, keep going - Winston Churchill.
The sea of despair so murky and cold. is this where I'll be when I grow old. I try to swim searching for land. My oh my isn't life bland. With a kick of my legs I speed through water. Should I stop.
You can't have your cake and eat it..
Work as hard as I can, save as much as I can and travel the world for a year, sounds like fun..
The grass may look greener on the other side but that is because you are looking from afar. Once you jump the fence that is when you see the weeds..
Real name: Rock Bottom. I'm Writing this because I've been there more than once and every time I have, I imagine this.
I watch soaps is because they make you realise that your life isn't so bad.
No one tells you how hard life is when you're kid, you look at adults thinking I wish I was like them they can do whatever they want, no one tells them what to do, their lives are easy they've got...
I'm there for everyone that needs me but when it's me that needs help, no ones there..
If life is the game and death is the prize, What's the point if everyone dies?.
The humble word so weak so strong Choose them wisely or you'll go wrong..
Tomorrow is today and today was tomorrow, tomorrow is monday and monday is tomorrow, tomorrow was yesterday and yesterday was tomorrow, it's all rather confusing do you have a pen I can borrow?.
The future is here but not yet come. The past has gone but just begun. The present is yours to do what you will. The Sun is setting so you just chill..
Words are the forgotten weapons, they can conjure up pain, inflict heartache, and even drive us to death.
Being creative is like having a superpower, you put all your energy in to using it to create some thing special.
A cold heart was once the warmest heart of all, then someone hurt them, and the warm heart grew cold to protect it's self..
My heart was once a burning flame then you left An ember is all that remains..
I just saw on the news that thieves have been stealing the telescopes from Blackpool sea front and replacing them with kaleidoscopes... Police say there may be a pattern emerging..