21 September 2012
I'm gonna be a little selfish here and say I'd rather me die first and you be alone in this world.
I say this because I don't think I can manage to be by myself, I can't deal with the pain and loss.
I don't want to go through the realisation that you've gone for good and I know you'll be more capable with my death than me with yours because I depend on you way more than you depend on me!
I need you to get me through the day and I need your love to take me through it. You are my light, and you are my LIFE.
So If you go to heaven first, on earth you make me the living dead because you've taken life's purpose from me.
I HAVE to die first. I HAVE to die first. I'm selfish I know.
Selfish • Opuss № I