26 May 2012
I didn't sleep that night. I tossed and turned until I eventually gave up trying. I walked to the bathroom and stood in front of the mirror. I looked myself in the eye and I'd noticed a change: not only was my skin darker, but my eyes were wider and brighter, even though it was 2am.
I spent the rest of the night just sitting on my bed, writing future blog posts and watching snippets of Breakfast at Tiffany's.
As soon as the clock stuck 5, my phone lit up. I'd been texting a few of my friends in England and Australia who were awake, so this wasn't startling or surprising. I opened the message and saw it was from Nate. It read:
"Hey gorgeous, can we meet in half an hour or so? Feel free to stay in that dress, I'll probably stay in what I'm wearing too"
That last part made my heart leap and beat feverishly.
"I'll see you by the bench, <3 xxxxxxx"
I jumped up, and gently tread around the sleeping bodies. As I grabbed my makeup bag from the table by the mirror I heard someone turn over. Was I about to get caught? I stood like a statue, and after about a minute, I deduced that I was safe. I moved slowly down the corridor, avoiding the creaky panels, and opened the bathroom door. As I did, I caught a glimpse of Mollie's door. No matter how hard I tried to ignore the fact that she was always in my head, I sometimes thought that I kept seeing parts of her for a reason. Like someone was trying to tell me something.
I brushed off these ideas as soon as Nate's name flashed up on my phone. His text told me that he was already on his way, so I had to hurry up.
I got into the bathroom and applied a little foundation, with a few strokes of mascara on my lashes, which were looking fuller than try ever had. With a quick flick of blush and eyeliner, and after pulling my hair up into a ponytail that brushed my shoulder blades, I was ready to go and join him.
I slipped on my sandals as I weaved trough the corridors, and after looking at the sun rising outside I decided too like that was a symbol. A symbol of how happy I was, and how this was the beginning of not only a new day, but also a new life for me. The red sun rose up towards the pink clouds, and I couldn't help but wish Nate was here now. I wanted him to see this sight and feel the same way as I did, then I wanted him to put his arms around me and kiss me again..
Before I could imagine anymore, he texted me again to tell me he'd arrived.
I walked out of the back door, and made my way to the bench. I texted him to tell him I was minutes away, and he replied with a smile.
As I made my way to the woodland area, on the final leg of my journey, I started to get nervous again. What if Mollie saw? It was 5am, she wouldn't be up for hours. What if someone else caught us? We were far enough away from the school for that to happen, and no one else knew where this bench was. It felt like I had two people on my shoulders: one who wanted Nate as much as I did; and one who wanted Mollie back. I felt split, but as I walked closer, I felt every single emotion in my body dissolve away: every one except for love.
He was sat on my bench. His hair was ruffled in such a casual but perfect manner, and, as promised, he was wearing the same as when we FaceTimed last night. His chest rippled as he sat up from his slouched position, and his muscles tensed. His chest was so defined and perfect, it looked like a sculptor had spent hours carefully chiselling out the perfect abs for him.
The sun had reached a position now where it could survey the world, and from this vantage point it appeared it wanted to admire Nate too, as it shot beams of light through the trees, that sunk down onto his chest, face and hair, dancing merrily on the surface of his skin.
I opened my mouth, stunned speechless.
"I was worried you weren't coming," he said "But you look gorgeous considering you've had no sleep." he winked.
"I'm past the stage of caring about how you know that" I said winking too.
Suddenly, my emotions took over, and I walked further in, sat by him and immediately reached my hands to his hair, blocking the sunlight from reaching it. He was all mine now, and I wasn't going to let anything or anyone else steal him away from me. As I thought this, we kissed, lips and tongues intertwining, bodies pressing together as he put his hands around my hips and pulled me in closer. Sunlight shone on our faces, eyes closed, enjoying this moment more than we could ever have anticipated.
Love You So: PART FOURTEEN • Opuss № I