18 June 2012
-TIFFANY-
After we'd arrived back at the boat it appeared that no one had noticed our departure. Just as my parents didn't when I was 14. It hurt a little, but knowing that I was in the most secure relationship I could ever be in made me happy.
"Do you know where Mollie is?" I asked Hannah as we approached.
"Oh hey Nate!" she said, hugging him. I cleared my throat, before she added "Tiffany!" and hugged me too.
"Well?" I said, as kindly as possible.
"Oh, not for a while. She was going upstairs last time I saw her"
"Thanks" I said, knowing exactly where they'd gone. But what they were doing wasn't important now: I needed to tell Mollie what had just happened.
"Mollie!" I said, running into Charlie's bedroom and diving on the bed next to her. "You'll never guess what's just happened! Well, Nate took me to this gorgeous place where we used to go when we were younger, an then we had a chat about stuff and he started talking about--"
"Tiffany, I'm just in the middle of something" she said, her eyes going wide, as I heard a shout from the ensuite bathroom
"I'm coming to get you baby!" the voice cried. But I didn't really hear it. I was still as worked up as a 6 year old who's just found out they're getting a puppy.
"Kids." I said, getting up and awaiting my best friend's response.
"What?" Mollie said, standing up and following me outside.
"Kids. You know, children?"
"Yes yes I know. But seriously?"
"Yeah, I think we're going to try and have a baby!" I said, the excitement ready to burst from deep within me. I bit my lower lip and closed my eyes, only to open them and see Mollie's expression: one that didn't match mine.
"Are you sure about all this?" she said, remaining surprisingly calm.
"I'm not making this up? Ask Nate if you want"
"No no, I believe you, I just want you to be sure you want this before you go and do anything" she said, putting her hand in my shoulder.
Throughout my whole life I'd been acting older: I never lived like a child when I was little, and when I was at school I took o the role of 'the queen'. But for once, I felt like I was being told off by an adult. Maybe it was the hand on the shoulder, or maybe it was her strict tone of voice, but I felt like a rabbit in headlights, my excitement depleting with every second that passed.
"We've already done--" I started
"I know, I know, but you know. I don't want you to get pregnant then regret it, that's all"
"I could never regret having a child with him" I said, "He's the best thing that's ever happened to me"
"And I'm happy, I really am. Just promise me you'll weigh up the pros and cons beforehand? I heard once that you should never do something if you can think of three reasons why you shouldn't"
"And?" I said, growing increasingly frustrated by my best friend.
"Can you?" she said, "Just think it through carefully". She stepped back into the bedroom and let the door click shut.
I stood outside for as long as I could, without feeling awkward. Had she really just told me not to have a child with Nate? Should I pay any attention to what she'd just said? Oh why didn't I wait; let the excitement fade then tell her? That way my hopes and dreams wouldn't be crushed by her in such a brutal manner. I stood there for a while longer, contemplating that perhaps the reason she was being so negative was because she was still in love with Nate. Yes, that was it. She knew that as soon as I had a child with him that she will have lost him forever. Poor Mollie... I started to feel sorry for her, and I even considered going in and apologising to her, but then I heard her and Charlie begin to argue.
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