17 July 2012
You're probably thinking that this is some crazy teenage rant that should be banished to a lousy Facebook status, but it's what's on my mind, so I'm going to speak it. I moved out yesterday. Everything got too much for me, and I'm now staying in a house full of boys and my best guy friend in the middle of nowhere. It's been quite a culture shock, as you can guess, but I'm slowly getting used to it. So I suppose now you could say I'm feeling pretty lonely and a tad unpopular. So, I've been looking at my story, and the same feelings are surfacing regarding that. Don't get me wrong, my whole world doesn't revolve around popularity, but it still affects me. I don't think any young person doesn't aspire to be popular, and unfortunately, that's happening to me right now. I'm losing faith in my story. I never intended to share it, and I never really wanted anyone else to read it, but a crazy moment lead to me posting the first part on here, and as people liked it I couldn't really stop. Now, about 100 parts on, I find myself taking this in the wrong direction. I'd initially wanted this to be a sort of memoirs, but it's turned into a story. I'd say that 40% of it is now fiction, and if I'd have known that it would have risen to that number when I first started writing, I wouldn't have continued. Plus, not only am I going against my original plan, but the popularity of these stories is depleting (see my last section for more details). I sacrificed my idea to gain popularity, and now that the popularity's gone, and it's too late to switch back to non-fiction memories, I don't know what to do. I've written up to part 75 in advance, but now I'm just considering ending it. I don't feel like its getting the same or the right reception anymore, and I just wanted to know your thoughts. Perhaps a way I could increase popularity, as I know I can't revert back to the way it used to be. I love writing this story, and I don't know what I'm going to do all day and night if I can't write it, but at the same time, seeing 3 likes on a post is seriously crushing, especially as I have low self esteem. It was really brought up by this app, but now I feel it all crashing down again. Any ideas would be seriously appreciated. Katy x
@crowncottage: you always appear to be the most helpful and inspirational advice giver on here, so I'd feel blessed of you could help me out? Thank you x
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