15 August 2012
WARNING: this is me venting,i need to vent some one and none of my friends are available and are tired of hearing about the particular subject because they think I should just get over it and don't really care. Which made me decide to bring it to my friends on opuss. So Im just warning you,this isn't a story or something its just venting. Any advice or kind words are welcome.
Okay here we go, Today or yesterday for some of you I was using some cream that smelled like a kind if perfume I have. As I put it on my arms and hands and such the smell brought back a ton of memories. I was in musical this year and got a crush on a guy in it. I knew of him since second grade,we where never friends,just merely pleasant aquatiances (sorry i really cant spell). After all at that age I was scared of anyone older than me and he is a grade higher. He went to middle school and forgot about me and I just remembered his name because I remember details like that about people i don't even know. In sixth grade my friend had a crush on him and I was a little shy around him,I knew him but He didn't know me. Or remember me. I thought he was cute and developed a little crush on him,but ignored it due to other relationship problems with my boyfriend. Now in 7th grade I joined the musical and started to become friends with this guy,i started to get a crush on him,and grew into really really really liking him. Even today his name makes my heart skip a beat. I broke up with my old boyfriend because he was a jerk for many various reasons and about a month later I started liking this other guy from musical. We became friends but I still liked him so much. I knew my bff liked him too,but she had always said that she would understand if I liked the same guy as her,so I told her. We git in an argument and we both ended up crying. That led to other problems but Thats a whole different story. Anyway I tried to find out if he liked me,but the end of the year was coming to fast. To soon I ran out of time to date him because he was going to high school while I was stuck in eighth grade. I like him so much and have all summer. My heart literally hurts deep down inside. The perfume reminded me of all this because it was the perfume I wore to the musical performance where it seemed like me and him had the best times together despite his friends disapproving glares. I miss him so much and hate that I have to wait a whole year to see him again. The last time I saw him was on my birthday where we only said hi,smiling like idiots just like we did in the school halls. Im gonna miss saying hi to him in the hall and trying to figure where his classes where. Im gonna miss trying to find out if he liked my and how he always managed to give me a hug and cheer me up. I guess I'm just gonna miss him. And the cream and perfume reminded me of this so I just had to get it out of my system. Thank you for reading and listening to my problems.
Sincerely,your friend Katie
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