22 June 2012
Dear Allen,
When I looked inside of my self, blankness was all I could see. I tried to reveal myself to others and myself but I could not succeed. Then a time came about when I was forced to find me.
I met you. My shining star, you led me to myself. You held me gently and carefully, for that, I thank you.
Yet, I cannot say I liked what I saw. Selfish, arrogant, and ugly, I was a disgrace. You tell me that I am beautiful, noble, and humble but it only makes me realise that I am the opposite.
When I look inside of me, I cringe. How could anyone ever love me? And no one ever has. I'm fat, lazy, and stupid, I have no common sense.
My star, you are so perfect that looking at you makes me notice my flaws. The only thing I am good at is being a good-for-nothing ugly brunette who cannot even love herself. My sun, I am writing this to you to let you know that your light has helped me last so far.
I could never stand to lose you. Now though, you must leave soon anyways so my time has come. Good-bye shining star. May you ever shine brightly to all those in need like you did for me.
Love always and forever, Me
Deep Inside Me • Opuss № I